Man

I really hate my job, but I feel like I can't quit.

I want to, but I feel like I made to many connections yenno.

Like it'd be different if I just started and I quit, but I made friends with pretty much everyone and I feel tied to them...if that makes sense...

Man and today Gio told me that she felt like she's known me forever and that I was like her bestfriend or something and I didn't say anything.

I feel kinda bad for not saying something.

She's super cool and I'm glad we're friends :)

~

It's really weird to me how people are so drawn to me.

I mean people talk to me and then say it's like they can tell me anything and everything.

I don't know, it's always been strange to me how I can make friends so easy.

I never understood why people want to be around me.

Apparently I'm funny and mysterious or some other shit I've heard.

But man, I'm so tired from work.

I need to go get ready for the hell coming tomorrow...

We're all going to get in trouble...as a work family...how lovely...

We didn't get the store clean...oops...

Update?

Damn.

I really was trying to have a post every day for a year, but looks like that's not going to happen.

I've been sooooo busy with work.

It fucking sucks.

I hate quitting things so I don't know what to do, but it's not just me, it's a lot of people there who hate it.

It's so much stress and work for a single person to take.

And some how everyone is going through the same thing.

Man, I need the money though.

I have another job lined up and everything, well actually two, so it's not like I'd be jobless or anything.

Fuck I'm so torn.

I really so hate quitting things.

Shit, someone help me!

Thankfully

Today was a pretty alright day.

I got a lot of stuff done at work.

I felt very accomplished.

I bet that a certain manager will have something to say tomorrow though.

I really hope this job works out though.

I need it.

I can't get super stressed like I was last week though.

If that is going to keep happening I have to quit.

I'm sure it won't.

I think things will get better with time.

Shit, I'm going to be working three jobs, on top of going to school full-time.

I am amazing :D

Kinda bummed

So my "weekend" is over.

Have to work for the next five days.

Pretty bummed Stephanie quit Monday.

She was the one who helped me get through the day.

I mean Gio, Maria, Yuri, and everyone else are there still.

But man, me and Stephanie were going through it together yenno.

Gio is pretty much new too, so it's good.

Man, I hope this week goes a lot better.

My sanity depends on it.

Day off day 2

Man, it felt sooo good to sleep in.

Yesterday I didn't get to relax cause my mom was off, and I had to drive her around and go shopping.

But it's good.

Today I'm chillin and doing nothing.

Then back to work tomorrow :(

I want to go back cause I miss some people, but don't want to go back cause of the stressful stuff.

My job is so bittersweet haha :)

Hope everyone is having a terrific Tuesday.

Yeah I totally did that.

(hearts)

Relaxing

So today I got a needed day off.

I have another one tomorrow.

Man, I wan to sleep in since I didn't get to today.

But I got some ugly work shoes that seem to be comfortable.

I guess we'll see when I have to be on my feet for 8 and a half hours Wednesday...

I can't wait til Friday(when I get paid)

Then Monday when I'm off and get to spend my money :D

Dude...

Good thing my coworkers are chill.

I mean not all, but most are really nice.

I'm cool with them.

They make me want to stay.

Especially Stephanie. Awwww.

Haha laaaaame :)

Save a drum, bang a drummer :)

Chchchcheck out these links.

I promise they aren't spam or anything.

This dude is pretty amazingly awesome!

Top 10 "sexiest" drummers...I only agree with number 1.

Brings back memories.

I remember me and this guy Brent said we were going to marry each other when we were like 4.

My sister will never let me forget that.

He moved away when I was 10.

Every time his family comes up in a conversation she always has to say that he's my man or my husband.

(his family is close family friends)

Umm...no thank you...

Late

Today went pretty well.

Except I was late.

Oops my bad.

But in my defense no one told me to be there when I was supposed to...

But now I know so it's all good.

Tomorrow's my last day then I have my days off.

I'm going to do nothing for two days.

It's going to be amazing :)

And well worth it.

Today was...

Horrible beyond words.

It was one of the worst days of my life.

And that's saying a lot.

I mean I've had waaaaay worse days, but shit man, today is up there.

Day 3 and I already hate my job.

I'll put it that way...

Don't have a day off til Monday :(

I feel super horrible.

Day 2

Just got home from dinner with the sisters.

Man, so tell me why I thought I was going to be part-time...no I'm full-time.

I mean it's more money, but damn, it's a lot of work.

Today went better than yesterday, thankfully.

Damn I'm going to have NO life for the next year or so.

Yay me...

Full-time student and full-time work, plus AGS and volunteering.

I'm so tired.

I don't have a day off until Monday :(

Work

So today was crazy.
It was my first day and I worked 8 and a half hours.
Man I'm tired.
I had a lot to do.
It ended kinda bad, but I'm trying to stay positive.
I hope tomorrow is better.
It's another 8 and a half hours.
I hope I don't have the same department.
That will make it a lot better.

Fucking sick!!

I want one!



Is it wrong that I think he looks like a monkey...?



Guess what I got?!

The mother effing job!!!

Finally, I'm makin some money that's legit :)

Woo! Woo! Woo!

Pretty happy right now.

I start tomorrow at 12.

Song of the Day

"Yeah I'm a country boy, but that big city bottom fill me up with joy."

My favorite line. It reminds me of some people :)

I reeeeally love zombies

Or as I like to call em, "zoombies"...don't ask...I'm just really awesome...

Man I'm excited for Dead Island to come out.

It's going to be super gory and awesome!

Plus...

Mother fucking Walking Dead season 2!!

Gah, I'm so excited for this to come back.

Sneak mother effing Peek!

 I'm such a nerd and I love it!!!

What what.

Pretty cool campaign The Body Shop had.

Just stop all of it...

Ok, so I know that it is really hard to be bullied for being gay.

I know coming out when you're a kid is hard enough, and being bullied makes it worse.

I get all that, and agree with all the anti-bullying campaigns.

I fully support them.

But I just want to know why they're only for gay kids.

All I've been seeing are "stop bullying homosexual/gay/LGTB/ect. kids" ads and campaigns.

I guess what I'm trying to say is there needs to be more campaigning and promoting for the end of bullying period.

It doesn't matter what sexual orientation, just fucking stop bullying.

There needs to be more awareness for straight kids too.

It doesn't just happen to gay kids...

I'm in support of anti-bullying for everyone no matter what they are, or who they are.

(PS I'm not saying anything bad about the anti-gay bashing and bullying ads, just simply saying there needs to be more support for non-gay kids.)

Oh, how I love...

Mother effing FLASH MOBS!!

And my personal favorite...

Gotta rep The Station, they're awesome!

Shweet

So my interview went pretty well...I think.

I really hope I get it.

If I do, I just found out that basically I'm going to have two jobs.

So that means no life at all til next summer.

Going to school full-time, volunteering, two jobs, and AGS meetings.

I guess I get my wish of never having to be at home.

I'm going to be so stressed, but at least for a good reason.

Not stupid bullshit...

I think this is a start of something delicious :)

Uh...

So tomorrow is my interview.

I'm kinda nervous.

We all know I can get super shy and anxious.

I think I can have it on lock though, but I'm still nervous.

My last interview I totally bombed, but I was in a very bad place at the time and had other shit going on.

This time there isn't so much shit, so I should be good.

I need this more than anything though.

And if it means no life for this whole year...so be it.

I'm ok with spreading myself thin...I've done it before.

Lol...that's what she said...(that was for Melissa. She loves that joke soooo much)

Anyway.

I know I'll be fine.

Woo! Woo! Woo!

YOU KNOW IT!

Haha lame wrestling reference :D

I (heart) me...

PS I really want his headband!

Truth...



They fucking love them!

Animal Photography Time!



Today

Woke up at 6am for no reason.

Went to sleep around 2:30, so yeah...

Then I woke up at 10 confused cause I thought no one was home and I didn't know where they were.

Then I, groggily, woke up at 11:50.

Went to Target to get some house crap, and Corri needed shoes.

Got home and was so annoyed by these people.

Urg. I can't stand being here.

Fuck.

Best Barbies ever.



Chauvinistic pig!

So the other day, as I drove past some construction workers, I told my friend how I wanted to do catcalls to construction workers one day.

She was like, "why?"

I was like, "Because, you know how they always holla at women walking by, well I want to do that to them..."

"...and we all know I'm probably a bigger chauvinistic pig than they are..."

Her reply, "...yeeeeah, true..."

Oh how I love being a dirty minded pig :D

Ok, well not so much chauvinistic, but definitely dirty...

I will do it one day.

I just have to be walking past when they're on break or something, and I need my camera to record it.

Who knows, maybe I'll get me a thick delicious construction man?!

La

So I went grocery shopping today.

Also went to this place called the Sardine Can for lunch.

Haven't been there in a few years.
It's a pretty good place.

~anyway~

The Walmart in American Canyon sucks.

I really hate going to that one.

It's almost as bad as Richmond's.

Almost.

Richmond still takes the prize for horrible customer service, and general quality.

yeeeeah.

Didn't go to rastlin' tonight.

Had no one worth going with, and honestly no one who'd make it fun.

I only go with people I can mac on afterward anyway ;D

I did miss seeing those asses, those dimples, and that long, luxurious hair though.

That's four different wrestlers if you were wondering.

Yeah, I'm like that :)

But a lady never lusts after and tells.

Well I'm no where near being a lady, so I guess that doesn't apply to me muahahaha.

Some of my favorite covers

Four covers I love more than the original.

Except, of course, Nirvana. No one can ever do a better version of Kurt. 



Best cover EVER.



Amazing

So I think it's about time I finally get a new phone.

Well I've needed a new phone for awhile now, but it really time now.

I mean for the last year it's been sending random old text messages to people, it doesn't send messages sometimes, or receives them, it freezes, it gets really slow, and now...

The speaker blew.

Well I guess that's partly my fault...I like to listen to my music pretty loud :)

Anyway though. I need a new phone, and after I pay my school I'm going to get it.

That is if I get this job...



YES!!

I totally just got an interview!

I am so happy right now!

I need this.

Hopefully I get it and don't have to work for Denise!

Totally stoked right now!

Cheesin like a mofo.

Corniness...

Goes out to anyone who watched their loved one slip away.
Owen Martin
(click his name if you would like to donate to Alzheimer's Association)

God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you
and whispered, "Come to Me."

With tearful eyes we watched you
and saw you pass away,
and though we love you dearly,
we could not make you stay.

A Golden heart stopped beating,
hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.

(confused face)

So I'm job hunting, with no luck.

I mean I have a job lined up for the Halloween season, but I reeeeeally want to find something else.

I love Halloween. It's my favorite holiday.

I love Spirit of Halloween. It's my favorite store.

If it was a random job I would totally work it and be happy.

If I take this job, it will be under the most horrible person I 've ever seen/met.

She is a horrible human being.

I hate being around her.

I am forced to see her only because she's my sister's "friend", and I use friend very loosely...

I'm so torn about it.

I mean I can swallow my pride and work, but I really don't want to deal with her shit all day and then come home to more shit.

I know it'll help me pay for school and all that, but at what cost.

I mean do I really need more stress on top of everything else I have to deal with?

Urg. I don't know what to do.

I'm probably going to take it if I can't find anything else, but it's going to suck.

I have school, tutoring, volunteering, a frat, and then work. Plus the bullshit at home.

I know I'm whining, but I guess I just need to think "out loud".

Well, more like type my thoughts out...

Feel free to leave a comment of wisdom...or stupidity...either one!

Weird

I had a pretty weird dream, like I always do.

I don't know why my dreams are always super detailed and realistic.

Sometimes it creeps me out.

Most of the time I wish I could stay asleep.

~anyway~

There's this website called dream moods.

It interprets dreams, and tells you the meanings behind what happens.

It's pretty cool.

You take objects or events that happened in your dream, for example if you were driving over a bridge.

You search driving for the meaning of that, then bridge.

It will tell you the symbolism, though it's not an exact science.

Go there and check it out.
(PS the blue words are links)

Cutest thing EVER!

Cuppy Cake Sam.

Song by Strawberry Shortcake.



Life changing!

I want him to be my best friend foreal!

He is amazing!

I was literally amazed by him when I saw him perform.
I normally don't like male strippers, but when a dude can hit the pole and work it...heeeeey boo!

I get shit done!

So I handled some bidness.

Then took my surrogate daughter to her orthodontist appointment.

Hilarious...well to me at least...

Pictures!

My personal favorite. So sexy.

Now we know she can have large objects in her mouth...just sayin...it's a good thing to know...

I love shoes...

I'm pretty sure I have a problem with sneakers...

And there's a bunch more I want. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Song of the Day

Haha is all I can say...
This song slaps though. YEE!



To Melissa...

Your Welcome.



Shrooms?



Those Japanese

know how to make food an art form.

Bento Boxes are hella cool.



Yummy.



This is the shiiiiit!



I'm totally going to buy this one day.

It's only about $3000...

Song of the Day

This goes out to my sister.

I'll always remember when I was little and she sang the chorus to me and made me dance with her...in the middle of Sam's Club.

It will forever be our song :)



El. Oh. El.