So lonely

So this is going to be my last post for the weekend.

Unless I post some funny shit later, that is...

~anyway~

I am going to be house sitting for Sarah this weekend, and working.

Her house is big and haunted, and I don't wanna be alone in it :(

It's not that I'm scared or anything I just get extremely bored easy, and I like having someone to mess with.

I mean it's good to be alone sometimes, and I do need my space, but I like to be social too.

I'm going to have to be home alone for most of the day.

With no internet...

Hmmm...maybe I'll go bring me home a night time friend ;)

But I guess this is goodbye for a few days.



Lil' Big Pimpin'



Shmexy :)



Got caught...

I'm slippin again...

I know how my blog is so important to some people's lives, and they hate having to go a day without reading about my boring ass life.

I'm sorry.

I guess I can somewhat recap the last couple days...

I was at school all day Tuesday, as you know, which was pretty mundane.

Wednesday I actually got up on time for my ceramics class.

I finished some more shits, and got assigned another project.

After that, I went to my tutoring job and read my serial killer book the whole time because there wasn't anyone to tutor.

Then I went home to shower and change for Halloween City.

Got some gas and grub, then headed out to the city.

We got there early, so we dicked around for a little bit.

When I clocked in I had to fix the mother fucking grids that fell.

I'm still hella mad at the dumbasses who decided to use tape to keep the grids together...

After that, Corri and I did the most to get some drinks.

Then I had to pick Melissa up and we went to my place and watched the Psycho remake.

I love that movie.

So that's how my life's been going...school and work...nothing as exciting as seeing Davey Havok at the DNA Lounge anymore :(

It's good though, I'm having fun with some people ;)

Fuckin a

I am in my Sociology class...

Hella tired.

I stayed up reading that book.

It's a pretty cool book.

I like how some people I know read books that make you think, and are about crazy, interesting stories, while I read psychology books about the mind of deranged murders.

Well, Ok, I read books about horror stories and psychology books about trauma too :)

What can I say...I'm one weird, sadistic mother fucker :D

So...I'm creepy...and I love it!

The other day I was talking about those books I need to read...

I am officially starting them tonight.

I'm starting with a book about serial killers.

Not a surprise right...

Man, I am so enamoured with the mind of a serial killer.

My research paper this semester is even going to be on something that has to do with serial killers.

Fuck dude, serial killers are so fascinating to me...

This book is really interesting though.

It's all about the history and psychology behind serial killers.

I've skimmed and read through some sections and chapters already, and it is a really good book.

There's even some crime scene photos that are pretty eerie.

El trabajo

Currently I am at my joby job at CC(Contra Costa College).

I'm bored, because it's slow.

Not even slow, stopped...

I helped hella people today though.

Man, helping write essays for 6 hours is kinda tiring.

My brain is pretty fried right now.

I can't complain though, I love writing...obviously :)

~anyway~

I gotta go back to work...well back to looking busy...

Go head girl!

I fucking love Betty White!

Rim job...

So I was skimming my posts just now.

Fuck I'm lame.

I like how almost every post I say how busy I am.

What can I say, I'm pretty lame...and busy...

I just need you people to know that this is where I go to vent about shit most of the time.

I don't like talking about my feelings and shit, so I guess this is a place for me to tell someone without them being in the shit.

I'm not sure if that makes too much sense, but whatever.

~

So I have a "book list" that I need to read.

Well, ok, it's more of a bunch of books I bought a while ago that I haven't gotten a chance to read yet.

They've been sitting on my bookshelf forever, calling for me to pick them up and open them...much like my legs...wait, what?

~anyway~

I like how as I'm typing this people have to ruin me being home.

Like really...you couldn't wait til tomorrow to bitch at me...

Whatever.

I fucking need someone to text right now...

"Home"

So I got to come back to the East Bay...

Wonder for how long.

I know for sure I'm staying in the city next weekend...alone...in a haunted house...that's old...and big...

Hmmm maybe I'll find me, as Denise and Mike call em, a night time friend.

But only for the weekend.

I kid...maybe...

I did have a crushy crush on someone, but idk he's weird and I don't know about him anymore.

I thought I had him pegged, but he fucking surprised me with being smart and shit...

~anyway~

I really like the people I work with...with the exception of one of them...so far...

I miss the city.

I kinda want to leave everything behind and move over that way.

Granted I've been wanting to do that...

I have no idea what's keeping me here.

But I'm not about to get all emo right now.

I'm just happy I can sleep in my own fucking bed tonight...

It's weird being here though.

This weekend...

Stress and shit

It's whatever yenno.

I really hate when people are like, "It's going to be alright." "It's going to get better."

Uh, I know that's why I don't want to talk about it...

I mean I am thankful for people trying to help, but I got it.

I don't talk about shit for a reason.

I just don't see the point of talking about things I can't change yenno.

I've dealt with them all my life, and I know how to get through it.

I've done it this far alone, and it sucks, but that's how it goes.

Last night was difficult and now I'm good.

I just really needed to clear my head.

I just wish Andrew would've left me alone sooner...that chivalrous prick ;)

Over it

Today was pretty lame.

Had a good time in photography.

Then again, I always feel better when I'm printing/taking pictures.

I think one of these nights I work I'm going to take pictures down Market.

I found out that one of my "friends" in class knows a wrestler from APW.

I thought it was pretty weird and cool.

I know it's totally cliche and lame, but it is a small world.

I really hate saying that, but it's fucking true...

He's friends with my teddy bear, Larry Blackwell.

That's pretty awesome :)

I wonder if I can try and meet and make friends with Larry.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I also like how people come to class high as fuck.

I like being around people who are high, well sometimes...but I like messing with them.

It was hella funny watching him try to concentrate on his conversation with a person.

I was the only one who knew he was high, and I like how no one could tell.

Speaking of...

drag queens.

Is it wrong/weird that I have a little crushy crush on one?

He's hella cute to me when he's a dude though.

My bad, I guess...

I can't find a good picture of him without makeup but here's at least one, and then one with his amazing makeup he does:



One of those days...

Man, have you ever just had a day that makes you want to leave everything behind.

Sadly I have them a lot, but shit today it wasn't just me.

Thank God I'm one of those strong, get through it types :)

Fuck dude, I'm just tired of fucking bullshit people.

I need a change of scenery, and company for that matter.

I think I'm just going to find some gay boys to adopt me.

Better yet, drag queens!

I take care of everything.

I go to college full time.

I am in the honor society.

I have two jobs.

I'm paying my own way.

I barely have time to do anything.

All I ask is that when I actually have time to be at home I don't have to deal with fucking bullshit.

Why is that so hard to do...

BREAKIN THE LAW, BREAKIN THE LAW!

One of my favorite cartoons ever!

I can't wait for the new season to start!

2 mother fucking AM

So it's 10 til and I can't sleep.

I'm extremely bored...

This is when I wish I still had a loser to talk to all night.

Guess I have to find a new one...maybe I already have ;)

Fucking insomnia gets the best of me.

I have that damn ceramics class that is so unchallenging it's ridiculous in the morning.

I can't work with things that are too easy.

I get bored with it and can't work, haha.

I think that's why I'm so fickle(whore)...but that's for another post.

I hate waking up at 8am for that damn class.

Then I have to go to work right after that.

I think I've gotten to the point where I'm bored with college, and it's "fight or flight".

Apparently I'm "too smart to not be in college", so I guess I have to fight.

I'd rather just spend all my time in the city dickin around :)

OH MY GOD!

I'll be a hobo!

So much to tell

I'm really procrastinating doing my nightly shits.

I just have a lot on my mind.

I'm one of those deep thinkers :)

There's so much going on right now, and so much fun and debauchery to be had.

I'm pretty excited for this month and a half, or whatever it is.

I'm determined to party with some of them.

But I think this is the last post for tonight, cause I got that effing class in the morning and I'm running on like 4 hours of sleep.

Things to do tonight:

-Not finish the two chapters of Chemistry homework due in like 15 minutes

-Find something clean to wear for tomorrow

-Take a shower

-Wash my shirt and hands, because I somehow accidentally squeezed a poop out of my cat

I think that the last one is the most important...

I think my cat has a problem, because when you squeeze his belly too hard he farts(loud) and poops.

I'm not sure what to do about it.

I guess not pick him up anymore...?

No sleep and gay boys :)

Man I love working in the Castro...

I'm tired as hell, but it's good.

I'm pretty happy that I get along with everyone I work with.

Man, that Andrew dude is a little dick though. I want to throw him in front of a street car :)

I'm hella tired, so if this doesn't make sense...oh well.

~anyway~

I've been hella busy so sorry about not letting you know what has been happening in my life...I know it's so important to all of you...my tens of readers...

Just know working two jobs, going to college full-time, and having to volunteer for honor society takes up almost all of a person's time.

Working woman

Getting ready to start the first day of my second job.

I'm nervous and excited.

I know it's going to be good.

And the pay check isn't going to be too bad either, haha.

I love working in the city :)

I fit in better there.

Man, I just hope this sickness goes away soon.

It's getting worse, so I'm not sure if it's just a cold.

But I guess it always gets worse before it gets better.

I'm in a pretty positive state right now.

This is good :)

Gah!

I know I haven't been posting.

This week was so busy though.

Tomorrow I start my second job.

On top of that I got more hours at my other job.

I'm splitting them with my friend though, so its not too bad.

I should be in bed because I'm sick, and have to wake up tomorrow.

Oh, I forgot to mention that I was sick, well yeah I am.

I hate being sick more than (almost) anything.

I have so much to do, and when I'm sick I just get slowed down.

My life has picked up real fast.

Thank God I'm good at adapting :)

Things are looking pretty good right now...except my effing Socio class, but that's for another post...

It's a good stressed out for once.

Tired of being tired

So apparently that post last night sounded completely serious.

The first part was a joke.

I mean the whole thing wasn't supposed to be all emo and serious, but it kinda sounded like that.

I was just thinking out loud I guess.

Ok, well, thinking in text?

I don't know, just thinking.

My brain's been racing lately...might have something to do with all the crack I took the other day...

kidding :)

I'm currently waiting to start work, and I'm super tired.

That fucking ceramics class is ridiculous.

I have to be there at 9am, until 12.

Fuck that.

I finish my assignments by 11 at the latest.

I just tell her I have to go to work, which isn't a lie.

~anyway~

I'm hella tired and can't think of anything witty to say right now.
Have a splendupist day...

Bullshit

I've been told "I'm slippin" in posting entries.

Sorry I guess.

I've been so busy with everything.

It's going to get crazier when I start my second job.

I've been thinking about a lot of shit lately.

I need/want to change some things in my life.

I'm going to make it happen.

I'm not going to let myself get to the point I was at last semester ever again.

I can't feel like that anymore.

Sorry this turned into an emo rant...

Anyway I have three papers to write, and no time to do them.

Tomorrow I get home early, so I think I'm going to try and start them then, along with everything else I have to do.

"The only person that's going to make your life great is you."

"It's depressing techno!"

Went to the DNA Lounge with some awesome people.

Saw Davey effing Havoc!

Watch a bunch of goth kids dance.

Got pulled over by some cute ass cop.

Home now.

I need to do something else now...

I have hella energy and have to wake up at 8:30am.

All nighter?

Possibly :)

I feel bad :(

So technically it's Monday, but I consider this to be Sunday still.

I haven't gone to sleep yet, so it's not the next day...

~anyway~

I was so busy today I didn't get to post anything.

I went to Berkeley to get some photo paper, so I can make some prints.

Then I went to the city to see where I'm going to be working.

I love it.

The Castro is so amazing to me :)

All the gays, bears, and trannies...aahhh, it's a dream.

I start on Friday, and I'm pretty excited.

I have to help set up the store, so I don't know how that's going to go, but the rest is going to be awesome.

Dear Corri,

FACE YOUR FEARS!!

Just trying to help ;)



Oh me :)

So today my mom and I got onto the subject of teeth.

I said I like crooked teeth better on people.

It kinda freaks me out when people have super straight teeth.

Plus the fact I like being bit, and crooked teeth are better for that.

Better yet! Sharp teeth!

Sharp, crooked teeth...uhahahah...

Oh nooooo!!!!

It's the six hundredth sixty-six post!

Is anyone scurred?!

I tried to find a good picture, but couldn't find a good one.

I was a little surprised that Google image searching "666th post" has a picture of some black guy having sex with a corpse that was cut open, and the insides taken out...

Not really what I had in mind, but thank you Google...I guess...not really...

I'm so amazing.

I volunteered at Playland today.

It was pretty fun.

I was in the pinball room.

I got to play pinball all day :)

I'm so good at it...kinda...

I am definitely going to go back soon.

I really want to shoot some of the stuff there for my portfolio.

It's going to be good.

Man, this is my last weekend for a while that I won't have to work.

From now on my weekends are going to be filled with commuting to the city, and working for that evil lady.

How amazing...

The little social life I have is going to disappear.

Two jobs, full-time college student, honor society(AGS), volunteering, and being amazing.

Man, it's hard out here for a pimp ;D

Shower time!


Google imaging "shower time" brings up a lot of porn.
Thanks internet, I have now seen a bunch of vaginas in a shower...
All I wanted was something funny...

I'm such an awesome human being :)

Soooooooo...I have a lot to do tomorrow. Kinda.

I'm going to be volunteering at Playland Not-at-the-Beach in El Cerrito.

I'm going to be there from 1pm-5pm, so if you want to take a little trip over there and see me....

Before that I have to go to pay roll and see if they have my check.

I'm hoping they do, because I kinda really need it...

After that I think I might be going out somewhere.

This is the last weekend until November that I have free, so I'm trying to do it up.

I mean I have the nights, kinda, but when I start my second job it's going to take up every time I have free.

Soooo yeeeeah.

It's good though.

I'm going to be making that paper!

Wow...



Is it wrong that I get irritated with people who don't have common sense?

I try not to.

I mean it's not their fault they're dumb.

I'm not trying to be mean either, but if you can't think about things like that...you're kinda dumb...

Ok, I guess I am being mean

It's just so aggravating to me that people can't use common sense on things that are obvious.

I guess I'm just an asshole, but I already knew that :)

Song of the Day

I love Cartman's cover on South Park.
"Californya-nya-nya is super cool to the homeless"

South Park: Night of the Living Homeless

Orginal:



Woot!

Guess who has a second mother effing job?!

I DO!!!

I am so excited to be working in the Castro!!

I forgot to tell you I think.

Denise got the Halloween City store in Castro.

That is totally my dream job.

I love me some trannies and drag queens!

I can't wait.

I'm supposed to start Thursday, but since I have school all effing day I think I'm starting Friday.

I'm so happy to be working in the city.

Minimum wage is hella more than over here!

CHEEEEEEEEA!!!!

Recap.

Today was pretty long.

Started off with that damn Socio class.

First it's early in the morning, then he goes waaaaay off topic and we don't learn anything.

After that I had a break.

Then English.

Right after English I had a counselor meeting (I heart Maritza).

Then right after that an AGS meeting.

I then had to walk Corri to her class, and walk back to mine, which are on the opposite sides of the campus...

Your welcome!

After that I got home and finally ate a real meal.

Very tired and bored.

Oh this is nothing...

...except Ted mother fucking Dibiase's autograph!

Hell yeeeeeeeah!!!

I have a legitly signed book of his.

I know no one else cares, but I effing do!

I'm hella cool for this.

My favorite Ello Kittehz



Today is a bad day

So effing excited!

So I know this is completely lame, but I am pretty excited for next month's APW.

It's the Halloween one, so everyone "has" to dress up.

Halloween is my FAVORITE holiday ever.

Real talk.

I already know what I'm going to be, basically.

Melissa, Corri, Me, and this girl we met there are going to be matching.

This is the makeup I'm going to have:

It's going to be mixed together and look extremely gory and digusting!

I love it!

I have no idea what I'm going to wear, but this is the makeup :D

Fuck Google!

I really hate the fact that YouTube and Blogger, along with everything else Google owns, is synced up.

I mean it's cool if you use the same email for everything, but for the rest who don't it's really annoying that you can't stay signed in.

For instance I used one email for my YouTube account like 5 years ago, but I used a different one for my Blogger account.

I like to stay logged into both, so I can just go on and do what I need to do.

Recently both websites have been "synced" so that if you have a Gmail account you can log in through that.

I mean couldn't they at least make that an option.

Whatever though...

I'm just annoyed with life right now...sorry...not really...

I like :)

How I like my women...dead and on their back...

I kid, or do I?

Anyway I love this picture by Brynne Kennedy.

Can't wait for her website to be up and running.



So...I was invited to this the other day...

Melissa forbade me to go.

I felt like it was going to be crazy anyway, and someone was going to end up getting shot and/or raped...

Nothing but disappointment...

I am officially home now.

Well I guess I've been home for a while...

Anyweasle!

Had a pretty good time.

And no, it doesn't matter where I went...

~

So I read that article thing about 23 pro wrestling myths and conspiracy theories...kinda disappointed...

They weren't really conspiracies or myths more as what happened to wrestlers.

It didn't have any sort of theory to why it happen, it just stated facts.

Whatever though, I'm always down to read about wrestling anything even though I already know about it :)

I'm just a rastlin nerd like that.

And hella cool!

Boop.

Today I found the best article EVER!

It combines two of my favorite things in the whole world.

Wrestling and conspiracy theories!

Whaaaaaaaaat?!?!

I was so excited.

I probably looked like a loser to everyone else, but I can give a fuck!

I haven't read it yet, but I am excited to!

As soon as I get back from my "outing" I am going to read it.

Don't judge me cause I'm hella awesome...

Only someone special can understand how I feel about this, so it's good you don't.

I still like you :D

Recaps are fun.

I was soooo busy today.

Was up at 8:30am.

Went to class.

Got some bidnez taken care of.

Went to my other class.

Got home.

Took a nap.

Went to my last class.

Developed my film :)

Got home.

About to go back out.



Let's get freaky! Threesome!



Oh...wow...

That DS doesn't seem to be hiding much...just sayin...



Shweet





Sooooo....

Being in this hell hole for more than a day is the worst torture ever!

Man, these people be whack!

But foreal, I hate being here.

The job I was supposed to be getting might be falling through, so I have no idea what I'm going to do for a second job now.

There is always my fall back career of being a prostitute...

HA!

I think I developed a crush on someone.

The thing is I don't talk to him, so I feel like a stalker, but what's new.

~anyway~

I'm supposed to be doing my homework, but I reeeeeally want to go exercise or something.

Urg I have to much energy for one person to handle...that's why I jump from man to man...

I kid, I kid ;)

I am fickle though...but that's another post in and of itself.

I think I'm just procrastinating...

That's why I just talked about like 5 things randomly.

I guess I should go get on that homework shit.



I feel like today's a watch the sunrise kinda day.

I think me and my old lady puppy are going to go watch it.

I would watch it with my thick delicious man, but I don't have one at the moment.

The position is currently open, and I am taking applicants.

Haha, I'm really lame :D

Maybe I'll go for a walk.

I'm sure there's a crack head riding his bike that can be my boo for the morning.

If you know what I mean...

The sex...if you didn't...

Oh, me...I crack myself up :)

Feels like a "ganster" morning :)

Since I'm awake I might as well listen to music.

And since I apparently, "The most gangster rocker chick ever," the obvious choice is slappin some E-40.

I've actually been told something along those lines a few times.

I mean, is it so weird that I was raised in the hood, but then I like "rock" and all that?

My brother and sister did the whole chola/cholo thing, and I guess I chose the other route.

Instead of putting sharpie on my eyebrows, I put it around my eyes like a raccoon :)

Instead of bangin I moshed.

Instead of claimin red I claimed black...?

But that doesn't mean I don't act like where I came from...

Ask anyone, I can get pretty off the chain.

It cracks me up when people are really surprised at how "ghetto" or "gangster" I am.

I'm such a mysterious and wondrous onion, with so any complex layers!