Brudah

Just got home.

It was an early night tonight, but still fun :)

Found a new church in the city.

Melissa and I are going to see whatsup with it.

Tell me why I was hella popular today.

I was having conversations with 6 people tonight.

Granted they were over text, but still haha.

Plus I went out for a little.

I was talking to one person about the past few months.

They have gone by so fast, it's ridiculous.

I have done so much, and so much has changed.

It's crazy what has happened in only 3 months.

Things to do this week:

1. Finish my jar and second mask for ceramics
2. Finish my 10 page research paper(due Thursday)
3. Do Hidden Messages paper(due Tuesday)
4. Do that Carl Marx paper(due Tuesday)
5. Turn in my Socio paper on Tuesday
6. Meet up with Art :)
7. Help Melissa move
8. Don't be stressed

I've been putting most of these off for too long, and now I have to hurry up and do them.

Procrastination is my middle name.

I'm good at it.

I'm also good at pulling amazing shit out of my ass, so it works out.

Heh heh...

Finally!!

Today was pretty good.

I finally got a new phone.

I have been needing one for sooooo long.

I've had mine for 3 years.

It was ridiculously slow, and forced closed all the time.

But anyway I'm very happy with my phone.

It's purple and black :D

It's pretty effing cool....like me...MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

So yeah.

That's news for this weekend...

It was a good holiday :)

Obsessed or Enamored...is either one even good

Have you ever met someone you were willing to change for?

I mean not change the core person you are, because I don't believe in that.

I mean change the "bad" things you're doing in life.

Like the stupid shit that can potentially fuck your life up.

I know that sounds really dumb, but I mean partying and all that.

I was just wondering about this...

It doesn't matter why either, so don't ask Corri!

Haha, I kid.

All fancy n shit

Had a surprisingly amazing Thanksgiving.

I wasn't sure how today was going to go.

It ended up being really fun.

Last night I picked up Desiree, and went over to Denise's house where we got ready for today.

After we were done preparing everything, Melissa, George, Desi, and I had a little pre-party.

A night filled with beer and....other things....plus dancing all night.

Des and I shared a bed all snuggled up, haha.

Then this morning we all help cook and clean.

There was about 22 people at dinner tonight.

Me dad and brother also were there, which was pretty weird.

It was joining to very different parts of my life together.

~anyway~

I really liked the feeling tonight though.

Everyone was chill, and we just kicked it all day/night basically.

We had a sit-down dinner.

I like how communal it felt.

Everyone welcomed everyone, and we all talked to each other.

Of course we ended up dancing...like always.

We were classy tonight, and had wine.

It was the nicest Thanksgiving I have had in a very long time.

I haven't been to something like this since my grandma passed like 10 years ago

It was good.

I'm exhausted from lastnight and today, so if there are errors in this post, my bad.

I hope everyone had a really good day.

Fuck dude...

Man, so today I saw this girl I used to know in junior high.

She was acting kinda weird as she walked by.

I was told that she had a mental break down in high school.

By mental break they meant she went completely bat shit crazy...

Like one day she snapped and had to be taken to a mental ward.

What the fuck right.

Apparently she was hearing voices and had crazy thoughts.

I was told she told one of our friends this man was telling her he was going to rape 10 girls and kill everyone, or something like that.

I want to know what happened to her that made her crazy, or if it was just something "natural."

It's just hella crazy to me that that happened to someone I knew.

She doesn't even look the same at all as she did when we were young.

That's some crazy ass shit.

This is a hard job...

This job gets really tough sometimes...(sarcasm)

Except right now, well I guess especially right now.

It's pretty slow right now...

I don't really have anything to do.

I'm pretty good at keeping myself busy, but right now I have ran out of ideas for the moment.

I like this job...for the most part...

I love helping people.

I really love watching someone who is struggling with a problem finally understand it.

~anyway~

It does get hard sometimes though.

Reading essay after essay, which can be up to 10 pages long, can get tiring.

Many people say that it is the easiest job, but it really isn't...

I mean it's not physically hard at all, but fuck man....mentally it can be draining.

Especially when a student COMES to you and then they fight over whether they are wrong or not.

But whatever.

They don't bring me down :)

I love being a nerd sometimes..

Weekends

This weekend was pretty chill.

I'm not sure if I like it.

I mean it's good to relax and all, but I get super bored.

I need something to do, or at least be with people who are not boring haha.

I guess it wasn't too bad though.

Got some shit done.

I totally slept like 14 hours last night too!

I have NEVER slept that long before.

Well while not being sick anyway...

That's hella crazy to me.

I haven't told anyone yet either.

So shhhhhhh... this is our little secret!

I know I needed all that sleep though, so it's ok.

Like I said

I did get to be pretty lazy today :)

I mean I had to clean and cook, but for the most part it was chill.

And as I said earlier, something came up.

I ended up going to the movies and a super late dinner with my peoples.

We saw Harold and Kumar Save Christmas, or whatever it's called.

It was pretty funny, but I feel like it would be so much better if we were high.

Lope agreed.

Overall today and tonight were pretty good.

Except I'm going through a Left 4 Dead withdraw cause I started playing it again.

Man, that game's awesome :)

Off

So today is the first day in a few months that I haven't had to wake up for anything.
I'm not going to say I get to chill out all day, because every time I say that someone calls me to do something, or something comes up.
I want to have a day to myself where I don't have to put pants on ;)
Granted, I don't put pants on for some people sometimes, but you know what I mean.
The only problem is I hate being in this house for a long time, and I get extremely bored.
I'm probably going to end up going somewhere.
But at least it's not forced :)

For someone

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
I'm the voice inside your head you refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face, mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees

Haters gonna hate

I can't believe some people are willing to stoop to the lowest levels to try and hurt someone...

I hope that person feels good about themselves.

They didn't hurt anyone's feeling.

Only made themselves look hella dumb...

Oops.

Baby mama drama...

So today was filled with kids...

I had a discussion with some friends about how we can't understand why someone would date a person with a kid if they don't want anything to do with children.

I mean the person with the kid is kind of a packaged deal.

It's really retarded if someone would think that a parent will put fucking before their child.

Granted some will, but they normally aren't really in their kid's life to begin with.

I'm talking about those who are all about their kid, and are fully in their kid's life.

I mean I'm sorry to break this to them, but you're just a bitch who'll spread...their baby is their world...you can't ever change that.

~anyway~

I saw an old friend at my sister's job tonight, while I was shopping.

She was watching her friends baby.

We kinda hung out while shopping around.

The little baby was pretty damn cute.

She was two and was fascinated by everything in the store...until my friend put on a mask to freak the baby out.

The baby was holding my hand walking around the store.

My sister was making fun of how cute we looked together.

I'm sorry I look all maternal and shit, and that's cute to some people...

*Sigh*

Another weekend has come and past.

I guess this one was more exciting than last week's.

Went to a kick back where I was one of three girls.

What an effing sausage fest!

I like those types of things though.

I get to just chill with no dumbass bullshit or drama from whiny ass females.

~anyway~

I should be trying to sleep right now, but I just got home not too long ago and I'm in this weird mood.

I have been thinking a lot lately about life.

Well ok, not really, but just about a few things.

Have you ever realized that your life is/has changed a lot, and you feel weird because you were so used to how it was before, but at the same time you like how it is now?

I feel like that now.

I mean I like it, but it just feels weird...in a good way.

I hate to get all mushy and shit like that, but it does.

I guess I just realized that I got myself out of that hole I was in, and now I can see the purty birds and shits in the horizon...you know you like my metaphor!

For Corri

Do you like clowns now?!

Let the venting commence...

I'm just hella mad right now.

So it was brought to my attention that people in my class have a problem with me being a smartass.

First of all, I haven't talked about what happened last week.

Basically my teacher in my CRITICAL THINKING class told me someone went up to her and said that because I talk so much they feel like they can't get their opinions across and I intimidate them and they feel like they can't talk.

She then asked that I don't talk as much, and try not to be so bright.

(The last part was a joke.)

I never talk over anyone or push my shit on anyone.

Most of the time I'm just making a joke or something...

So anyway.

My people in the class know what happened, so now we are hella smartasses about it.

The joke is whenever someone is talking and one of us is saying something or we say something after them the others yell at the person to "shut up because we are not letting the other person say their opinion."

I can give a fuck if my teacher gets mad, or anyone else for that matter.

If you have a problem with me or anyone in my "group", as my teacher calls us, then fucking man up and talk to us.

Don't be a little bitch about it, and pussy out and just sit there talking shit under your breath to your friends...

Apparently today when I said I was going to let everyone else talk first so I don't ruin their opinion with mine, someone started talking shit, and one of my friends saw.

I feel like that's hella high school.

If people want to talk in the class, fucking talk.

Grow balls and speak up.

Even tell me, or whomever, to shut up if you want.

Granted that may start problems, but you know what I mean...

I mean we're supposedly all adults.

It's OK to speak your mind.

I'm not going to bite your head off or anything if you disagree with anything I say.

Most of the time I'm just shit talking and joking...

All I can say is

Woman of the night

Just getting home.

I need to stop being out hella late.

At least during the week when I have to wake up hella early, and can't get a nap.

These past months have been really amazing though.

I am really excited for what's going to happen next.

Nothing can really bring me down.

Even though I have minor bumps...

It's all good though.

I am in a good fucking place.

All the people who weren't shit seem to have been weeded out of my life(for now), and some cool ass people took their place.

People who actually give a fuck too.

None of that whatever happens-happens, and I can get over you hella fast bullshit.

These people I'm with are protective and caring.

I like it.

I never had this many people try to be there for me...genuinely that is...

Song of the Day

Has nothing to do with Molly, but it reminds me of it.

Good ol' Molly ;)

This song slaps!

It's really sad...

when your old friend has to be so childish, and make fun of you.

I mean come on...we're not in fucking junior high...

I thought we were adults.

It's whatever though.

Obviously they weren't shit to me if they can just turn around and be that catty...

Fuck dem bitches ;)

California Dreamin'

I've been having weird dreams lately...

Awesome

This weekend was pretty relaxing.

I got to just chill out for a couple days.

I haven't done that in about two or three months.

It felt pretty good.

I kinda missed going out every night, but whatever I can do that again easily.

I haven't seen my family in hella long, so I felt like I had to stay home and kick it with them.

This weekend was surprisingly almost all the way drama free.

Now hopefully I get to class on time tomorrow, and hurry up and finish my project that was due last Wednesday.

Plus I have a couple more projects for ceramics due soon.

Oh, and then I have to bust ass to finish my portfolio for photography.

Plus the debate I have in English on Tuesday.

Then the paper for Sociology about a movie I didn't watch yet.

So much for a chiller life...

I love being busy though.

It keeps my mind off all the bullshit :)

I'm not dead

So, just so everyone is clear, I'm not dead...

I've just been living...and loving...and doing it to the utmost...

Ha, I love that movie.

But anyway...
I'm good.
Everything is good.
And I hope you all are good :)

Oh...SHIT...

Fucking delicious.



I'm pretty sure tomorrow is going to be the last time I ever see most of these people ever again.

Well, ok, actually Sunday and Wednesday were the last day.

Tomorrow I'm going to be cleaning the store with Desi and Denise so it can look pertiful for inventory.

I think Scott and Curtis are going to be there too, but I'm not sure if anyone else will be.

It's been a pretty fucking crazy ride.

That's putting it very lightly.

From almost losing everything to going on a date with a girl(on accident)...it's been fucking amazing :)

I'm going to miss everyone, but I hope I get to kick it with some of them in the near future.

My life is going pretty fucking awesomely right now, and I haven't ever felt like this before.

I really like where I'm at and where I'm headed.

I make em scream ;)

Tonight was pretty fun...like always...

Went to see Paranormal Activity 3 with Corri, Lissa, and Chris.

Corri screamed like a bitch the whole time.

It was fucking hilarious.

Everyone in the theater was laughing at her when she screamed.

I have known her basically all our lives, and I've never heard her scream like that.

By the way, the ending isn't life changing like everyone says it is...

Had a pretty good time though.

Now I have to wake up in like 5 hours, and have class all day, then work, then a night class.

Awesome...