What an Amazing Time...

The title is sarcasm...if you didn't know...

So the CSU's (California State Universities) are not admitting anyone Spring, and probably summer, 2013, which is when I was supposed to transfer.

I don't remember if I said that or not, but I'm reitterating if I did...

I talked with my wonderful counselor today, and we made my schedule less crazy and sread it out through spring 2013, as much I didn't want to stay at CC that long.

At least now I have light loads for the next 3 semesters (summer included).

Plus it will ensure I can focus on each class to get A's, even though I will either way ;) kidding.

I will have my double majors still, and gradute with honors.

I can also try to save up more money for CSU East Bay...yeah right...

I am still going to try and move out too!

I just have a little more time to do it now.

I don't think Hayward is ready for me anyway...

Song of the Day

This song does things to me...

His voice with the lyrics are fucking insanely amazing.

I get tingly in my ovaries listening to it ;)
I have raped the repeat button like a million times on my phone already.
PS This is Stone Sour's cover. Orginal is by Chris Isaak.

Oops

Too much has been going on.

Well I guess not that much...

My car I drive broke down, so I've been without a car for the past three days.

It cost $1100 to fix, which no one has, so that's fun...

I had to miss school on Monday, and have no idea how to write the 5 page research paper that's due next week.

I have a test at 8am, and I didn't get to study that much.

I also have a 12 hour day at school tomorrow.

8 of it is 4 classes straight through, and then the other 4 hours are work.

I'm so ready to relax after everything on Friday.

I don't really get any breaks this week which kinda suck, but its good I guess.

Oh!

And I just found out the only school that have my major around here cancelled admissions for the semester I was going to transfer.

I have no idea what the fuck I'm going to do now...

All CSU's aren't going to have admissions...that means I don't get to further my education, and I'm fucking pissed!

PARTY!

I'm going to a St. Patrick's Day party today, so I decided to put a picture up today.



Time for Something

I kinda hate being so busy sometimes.

I mean I knew I was going to have no life, but it still sucks.

I'm currerntly taking 19.5 units this semester.

That's seven classes.

Plus I took the challenge test for the Library Studies studies.

I barely have time to study, let alone do actual homework :)

Well that and I'm lazy :D
Plus I go to the gym at night.
And that's something I can't not do.
And of course I work.
Its pretty ridiculous all I do in one day.
I also have to look for another job...
Sheesh!
I can't wait til spring break, even though its only a week and I'm going to be cleaning and going through my stuff the whole time...
I never thought I'd be at college 12 hours a day...
I guess that's what happens when you decide to have double majors.
Damn me and my intelligence!
PS I'm never doing a 8am class EVER again.

Drink of the day

People say 151 is too much, and that only alcoholics can handle it.

No...only people with balls can handle it ;)



I have no shame

So Corri, Melissa, and I were at the gym.

This dude that was tryna get at Corri a while ago was there with his sister and some other dudes.

So dude goes somewhere, and his sister her man and some other guy were on the machines next to us.

The girl stares at Corri for a couple minutes, lookin her up and down.

I see her and stare back hella dumb.

She then sees me, stares at me for a couple seconds, and then looks away.

Her and her dude start talking about Corri or me or whatever, but they kept looking over at us from the corner of their eyes.

I was like, "Aye Corri, you should say hi to that girl. I think she knows you."

I kept saying it like, "Corri I think that girl knows you, you should say hi," and other stuff like that.

The girl and her dude look at each other hella crazy and started talking about me.

After like 5 minutes they walk away, but the girl was staring at Corri hella hard.

So naturally I go, "You should go say hi since she obviously knows you."

The dude turned around and said "(muffled words) weird..." or something...I don't know what he said exactly.

I'm like this...if you gonna stare at someone hella hard, and you get caught, you gonna get called out...

Don't hate on some if you don't wanna fuck wit them.

If you gonna look stupid prepared to get embarrassed.

OH MY GOD!

And then tell me why the dude that was tryna talk to Corri was walking toward us as we were going to another machine, and sees us/her and IMMEDIATELY turns around and walks all the way around the other way to avoid her/us. (He wasn't tere for the other part.)

Then him and his sister leave hella fast.

Da fuck?

You really gonna be a bitch ass mother fucker and avoid a girl you were tryna talk to?

Man up pussy!

I can't stand dem bitch ass pussy ass mother fucking no dick bitches!

I'm hella mad...

Hmmmm...

I grew up on this show...

Maybe this is where the boobie obsession came from?!



OMG its me!

Bitches be crazy...

All I can say about my love life right now...



I just missed you guys (hearts)

My heart burns for you like the burning of a chlamydia flare up.



D-Job?

I dyed my hair :)

It was supposed to be all purple, but it ended up being a brown burgundy with some purples in it.

Eh, I like it.

Well I haven't really seen it in the sunlight cause I'm sick in my room, but still.

...so there's that....

I also sliced my finger and foot open...not at the same time...

That's also fun...

Just thought I'd awkwardly say how my weekend is going.

On my mind...

So I was talking about this with someone earlier...and I can go on for hours on this topic.

I've written so many papers on it.

It's bullying.

It is one of the thing I am most passionate about.

I am currently trying to find an organization to team up with in order to at least make a dent in stopping this.

I don't really talk about it, but bullying has really fucked me up.

Like really.

I didn't leave my bedroom for four years because I had so much anxiety from being emotionally tortured in junior high.

I had extreme social anxiety along with general anxiety, which I am still working on.

I stopped living for those years.

No one deserves to be made into a hollowed out being.

I just can't believe how stupid schools are.

I mean it's great schools are adopting anti-bullying and saying the school is against it, but what are you DOING to stop it.

Words are just that, words...

There needs to be actions behind those words to make a REAL difference.

Turning a blind eye to someone getting picked on is not being anti-bullying.

Take for example the most recent shooting in Ohio.

He was crying out for help for a long time.

Not only were there police reports that his parents both abused him, but he posted pictures and statuses on Facebook exclaiming his turmoil.

No one did anything.

Someone needed to be there for him, but everyone in his life failed him.

People say he wasted his life killing those kids, but where were they to help him?

Did they try to reach out to him?

Did they try to help out some how?

He was alone.

He was desperate.

He was angry.

He had enough.

There are too many kids exactly like him, and nobody is there to help them.

There needs to be more than advertisements and people saying they're needs to be an end to bullying.

There needs to be actual consequences ad repercussions.

This needs to end.

And don't think I'm all talk.

As I said I am looking for an organization or program to help, but also am working toward starting up my own place where I can help kids being bullied.

Most of these kids just need an outlet and someone to be there for them.

I'm determined to help at least one kid with their struggles.

Will you fight with me?

I'M BAAAAAAAAACK!

I FINALLY got my computer working again!

I haven't done anything for my PoliSci class yet because I haven't had a computer to work on.

I can never get a computer in the library :(

Good thing my professor doesn't care when we turn the papers in as long as they're turned in.
I still need to go buy some things for my computer, like Microsoft Office and all that.
I also have to do five years of updates on this mother fucker...and they're coming in one by one.
At least I have something though.
I'm still upset that I lost everything from the last four/five years, but I guess that just means I have to make new and better memories...not to be cheezy at all...
I shouldn't do a happy dance just yet, but I think I can do a little one.