"Happy" Birthday...

Ok, so before I start getting all whiny and shit let's start with the good.

That way you don't have to read the boring shit if you don't want to.

I'm lookin out for my peoples ;)

I am so thankful for the overwhelming number of people who have called, texted, and/or sent me a Facebook thingy wishing me happy birthday.

I didn't realize how many people really cared about me like that yenno.

It's weird going from not having anyone to having hella people.

That's a little emo, but its hella true.

~anyways~

Even though I had to be at work and school all day, my coworkers/friends made it a good day.

This was the first time I had a good day on my birthday.

So now the "whiny" shit...

I really don't mean to sound emo or ungrateful, or anything like that, but I just want one time where I can have a good day where I don't have to deal with dumb bullshit.

I always try to put myself last and do as much as I can for people without anything in return, or holding it over their heads.

I hate bringing it up because I feel like I'm trying to brag, but I'm really not.

I give a fuck if I get recognition for shit I do.

I don't mind doing things for people.

I just feel like some people take and take and never do anything for me.

I mean I bend over fucking backwards, can you give me one day where you do something decent for me.

I'm not asking to go all out and do hella shit.

I just ask that I don't have to deal with dumbass drama.

I have never had a birthday party or anything “big on my birthday.

I have never been surprised with anything, or had something hella cool happen.

I have to ask for a cake and candles.

The only reason I'm having a party this year is because Denise insisted, and my sister thought I should finally have one with everything that has happened in the past.

My parents aren't helping with the party.

Well, my mom gave some money for food after my sister had to ask her.

I just don't understand why people don't have any compassion, empathy, or selflessness.

I guess all I am asking for is to feel special for one day out of the year.

I guess that's too much to ask from some people though.

As I "speak" my dad is yelling to my mom about how he had to buy me a cake and it's not his fault he forgot candles and oh well, too bad.

And they're fighting about some other shit that's ridiculous too...

All they're going to do is eat the cake, which I find pointless and they don't need me here for that.

This is why I am never home.

I am going out in a little to find something to do.

Happy Birthday to me I guess...

Every Stoner's Dream

So I'm leaving for LA tomorrow at the buttcrack of dawn.

I'm not to excited about going, but whatever Ima have fun either way.

Well make myself have fun anyway...

What the fuck is wrong with me?!

We are leaving at 7am, so that's fun...

It was originally going to be just Melissa and I.

Now it's us and my dad.

I wanted to go to Venice Beach and do what everyone does down there.

You know...

I guess we'll have to wait til my sister's birthday :)



But foreal, I have fun no matter where I go.

Damn I'm being emo.

Weird

So I go back to work tomorrow.

I also start summer classes.

Super fun...

At least I have drama with people I know.

I am taking classes with teachers that are hella serious about their shit, so that's gonna be fun.

It's only six weeks and the first two are gonna go by hella fast cause of all the shit happening.

I'm hella tired.

At least my hair is purple :)

We redyed it tonight, and now it super purple and not pink/lavender like it was.

I guess I should try and go to sleep cause I have to be at work and then go to my two fucking classes.

Woo college.

Fucked Up

I hate having such a good imagination sometimes.

I have thee craziest dreams.

They are super real.

Sometimes when I wake up I'm confused cause I thought my dream was real life.

I hate that.

I have woken up a so many times hella confuse as to why I was in my bed cause I was in a whole other place.

I have even woken up in other beds hella confuse and didn't know where I was cause my dream had me somewhere else.

I like my dreams though, most of the time.

I feel like I could write a book of short stories based on my dreams.

They get hella intense sometimes too.

Man, I don't even know...

I have shit to do right now, but I'm procrastinating...

Blllaaaaaaaaaaahhhh...I guess it's time to be an adult...

I leave you with this

Edward Scissorhands

I got my her did.

I feel all new and fresh cause my hair is cut and colored.

My hair was down to my butt.

I think its a little more than half way down my back now.

It's all purple too :)

It smells super delicious and its hella soft.

So yeah that was my day...

I kept it short this time.

He's so smart ;)



Dumb Blonde

So...I kinda have blonde/brown/auburn hair right now :)

Its heeeeella weird.

I haven't had light hair since I was 10 and my mom bleached my hair.

We are going to make it lighter tonight and then put the purple in.

I mean I've had half my hair bleach blonde, as you've seen in my hair post (You can see it here!), but not the whole head in like 11 years.

It is hella weird cause it's always black/dark brown.

I mean it's not like it's going to stay blonde...

I'm getting it cut on Friday too.

I'm debating how much to cut off still.

Either way it's going to be long cause my hair is down to my ass...

I like I might do 3/4 inches, but idk.

I need a hair cut though.

I haven't had one since October, and I've bleached and dyed my hair since then and it killed the ends.

My her goin be hella foyn after I get it done :D

Dates

Had a lil datey poo tonight.

Saw Snow White and The Huntsman.

The only reason I saw it was because Thor and Charlize Theron were in it.

Fucking Kristen Stewart ruined it for me but whatever.

It was a pretty good movie, but as I said, that should've found another Snow White.

I am getting up early to have a hiking date with a hoface gremlin.

After that we are going to Fairfield woo woo.

Friday I am getting my hair cut.

I need one cause I haven't gotten one since October, and I have dead ends.

Plus we are going to be doing all that shit to it, so Ima needa cut the ends off.

I should try and sleep since I have to wake up in about 5/6 hours....

So I guess this is goodnight.

Sleep tight boos!

Life, Coriness, and Shit

Didn't go for a hike today, but I will mosdef go tomorrow.

I partied to hard lastnight haha...

I had a pretty alright day.

Went to lunch with my brother, and then took him to a couple places he needed to go.

This was the first time we "hung out" alone in about 3/4 years, maybe 5.

We didn't really talk, but atleast we did something together I guess.

Ok, we actually didn't talk at all...unless it was him telling me where he needed to go, but whatever haha.

Tomorrow I am going on my hike with my sister, she finally decided she wanted to come, and then we are going to Fairfield to window shop and see if I can find anything for my party.

I have been told by almost everyone that I need to wear a dress, so I am going to try and find a fucking dress.

I was already going to wear a dress/skirt, but I'm pretending that I am humoring everyone.

I want to look like a girl for once, and be all pretty and shit, so I am going to find something cute.

Plus my boo is coming, so that gives my extra incentive to show him what I look like when I don't look like a bro :D

I think he might die...or get a bonesy bones...either way its going to be good :)

My friend is even doing my hair all cute like.

I'm excited about everything that is going to happen this summer.

Everything is changing and it is all good shit.

I got shit happening for me and people that want nothing but the best for me by my side.

I feel like I have a somewhat "normal" life, granted the past and other shit come up, I still am making shit happen for me.

I'm in a pretty good place right now.



Which way(s) do you smoke?
I hold the things I smoke differently depending on what it is I'm smoking :)


Productive shithead

I feel accomplished today :)

I took someone to Oakland.

Apparently deep in the hood, but it looked pretty nice to me...

After that hour of shit (traffic), I went for a hike.

It was a long 2 hour walk with a few pretty big hills.

I was alone, and got to short of clear my head.

Well I didn't really think about anything so yeah...

I could've kept walking, but I didn't cause I would've never came back :)

I feel like it was good though cause I went twice as longer than last time.

I haven't gotten to go hiking all week cause I gashed my ankle and couldn't wear shoes :(

I always get hurt in the dumbest way possible haha foreals.

I have so many dumb stories!

Anyway

So after that I went to Sally's and got some hair dye so we can do my hair before school starts, which is next week...

Why must I be so fucking smart and need to go to school all the time.

All the other kids are partying all summer.

I am in school nerding out :)

That was a joke for people who don't ever know I am joking...

We are going to lighten my hair, not bleach it this time, and then dye it ALL purple.

We tried this last time and my hair didn't get light enough, so it turn black with some purple strips.

We are making this mother fucker bright ass purple.

Well dark, bright purple haha.

After that I showered and took a nap.

Yep, super productive...

I got a tan! Woo Woo!

I'm determined to get hella dark like when I was little!

Ima be hella dark, and white people are going to speak (horrible) Spanish to me all the time, well they still do sometimes...but now all of them will.

And, in my perfect English, I will be like, "I speak English, bitch..."

So that was my day.

I hope everyone had an amazing weekend and Monday.

I had an amazing weekend with my oldest sister Sarah.

It was just me and her all weekend.

Melissa was there Friday night, but that's whatever haha. (Love you, Melissa)

I love my sisters more than anything, and my nephew.

They are the only 3 people that I know will always be there for me no matter what.

I'd do anything for them and visa-versa.

I fucking love them, and they are the ones giving me my party, and I am so grateful that I have them in my life now.

"If jealousy is ugly than I must be shallow as hell cause I don't want those mother fuckers around me!" ~Me

Egg on my face?

I was writing a post I guess technically yesterday.

I haven't been to sleep yet, so to me it was earlier.

Anyways...

I was writing it when my sister called for me to get her.

We did some bidness and then I "chilled" all night.

I am not at all tired, but I have to go to the city tonight so I think I should try to sleep.

I am actually debating whether or not to go on a hike.

I have a gash on my heel but I want to try and go anyway.

I can't wear shoes but I think I can walk through the pain for little.

I'm manly as fuck!

I have always wanted to go somewhere and watch the sun rise and set.

No one ever is down to go with me, but it's ok, I'll find someone one day ;)

I'm not used to be (productively) awake at this time, and right now I'm alone, so I don't have anything to do.

Everyone passed out or went home, so I'm am left to my own devices...which used to get me into alot of trouble.

But that's another story for another time.

I'm currently laughing at the fact "left to my own devices" can be taken in a completely different way than what I mean...I love my filthy, filthy mind :)

I like how after my sister and I talked about not staying up so late I stayed up all night.

I need to get my shit together apparently haha.

At least I had fun.

So I'm pretty sure none of this makes hat much sense, but I don't really care.

My brain may be tired, but the rest of me can go on for more.

Wink........wink.

See...I do that shit cause I'm smart...
I do it too much.
That must mean I'm a fucking genius!!


I love this picture so much...and not just cause she's nekkid :D




BAMF

Nikita Nomerz

He's whatsup!

Check him out if you like street art.

http://www.nomerz.com/

http://streetfiles.org/nomerz

This skinny ass dude...

This song is so hilarious to me cause he is heeeeella tiny.

Had to put the video lol ^___^

Day 1 of this adventure

We all know I like adventures...

I decided to make this whole "changing shit up thing" an adventure.

I have no idea where it's going to take me, and I have no idea what's going to happen.

That's how all my adventures go...

I think it's about time I shake some shit up once again.

I feel like my life was flat lining a little bit...it's time to defibrillate it...

I mean I guess I'm not really starting over or changing all this shit out of no where like I'm making it sound.

I guess I'd say I'm picking up where I left off on getting my shit together after what happened.

I was sidetracked by bullshit, but sidetracked I will be no longer!

Ha! Got all Yoda-y on you bitches ;)

Nerd Power!!

For serious broheem...

My body somewhat hurts from that hike...I like it :)

I like being sore from trying something new...heh heh...

Anyways!

I think I'm going to do that trail every other day, if not everyday.

I'm going to start with these two weeks I have off, and see what happens when I go back to school and work.

I think it's going to go pretty fucking amazing :)

That was positivity for you mother fuckers.

I'm being fucking positive in this bitch!

^__^

Anyways...again...

I want to get back to how I was before...maybe even go a little more.

I missed being athletic...and thick.

I mean I still do shit...

I would just like to not be all jiggly and nasty looking when I'm doing it...that's all :)

Don't get me wrong...I'm not trying to be hella skinny or anything like that...I still wanna be thick.

I'm built to be a thick ass bitch.

I got them Mexican baby makin hips and thighs.

I'm always gonna be thick, and I want to be.

I have too many dirty things I can say about thick girls, but I shall refrain!

It's hard, but I'm trying :)

I'm also quitting smoking, cigarettes...and I'm only going to party when there is reason, so no more kick backs where I just get down.

At least until I reach my goal, haha ;)

Nah, but foreals I want to change up a lot.

I wanna do this healthy shit plus actually try in college.

I need to get back on track cause I kinda fell off this semester, and somewhat last.

I have to stop letting shit get in the way of what I want.

Yeah buddy let's do this shit!!









Supa Cornball Time!

My Bad...

Turns out that I have a life, and forgot to put some pictures up.

Who would've known...

Anyways, let's begin this lame, inspirational, corny as fuck picture session shall we?!

Yeah buddy!

I'm doin the damn thing!

That walk was really a hike, and I loved it.

Hella hills, but the view was dope.

We talked and bonded haha.

I even did 100 leg lifts when I got home :D

Pretty good for not being able to go to the gym for a week.

I think I might do this every day...well almost every day...I don't know if I can wake up every morning haha.

I feel good though.

I kinda like working out in the morning rather than at night.

I feel like then I will actually sleep at night.

Hmmm...maybe I won't be nocturnal if I do this...but I like being nocturnal...

I also found hella pictures last night, so those will be popping up on here through out the weekend...or today...depending on how bored I get :)

Fuck the gym!

Since the gym is closed until I Monday, I believe, I am going to go for a hike with my boo tomorrow :)

I had a hella good workout the other day and it was the last day the gym was going to be open, so I made sure to put in work.

I'm excited for this walk cause my boo's a fighter, so its gonna be a good hike.

Its gonna be good to get fresh air and shit :)

The only thing is I have to wake up hella early...well 8am...that's early for this week!

Today is the start of something new...well alot of new things are going to be happening...

Ima really do it the next couple weeks before summer classes start.

Go hard or go home, as the great E-40 says :D

Let's do this shit!!