If You Didn't Know

I love anything with a motor.

I especially love my 72 Dodge Coronet Custom with a 318 ^__^

I would love to put a 440 in it one day.

I'd settle for a 400.

The bigger(and louder) the better ;)
I'm in the process of fixing him up, obviously.
He's going to be amazing when we're done.

Did I Become A Dumb Bitch?!

I think I did...

I keep having dudes tryna get at me, but I don't want them I want someone else.

I could have all these dudes, but I don't.

The funny thing is that the one I really want has no clue and is probably fucking whatever.

I mean it's not even about who's fucking who.

It's that I don't want these lame assholes, and what I do want I can't have.

I feel like a dumb bitch for that.

I let myself catch feelings...

And they're not fickle, lustful feelings like they normally are.

I don't know if I like this shit.

Actually, I fucking hate it.

The Chase?

I don't want to sound weak or anything, but this post is probably going to...

I am tired of having to be my own savior.

I'm tired of always having to pick myself up.

I'm tired of being my own support.

I know I always joke about having a thick delicious man come save me, but you know what it would be nice.

He doesn't even have to be thick or delicious, just cute and funny lol.

I mean I'm not saying I need a man or want him to do whatever the fuck bitches are always talking about.

I just really would like some to be there for me when I am overwhelmed and need to talk to someone.

It gets really old talking to myself after a while.

It's funny though because when a dude does try to be there for me I push them away.

The most recent one I really do/did(?) like.

He was always tryna get in my business and know my life.

Of course me being me was an asshole and refused to tell him anything while making fun of him the whole time.

Now I'm pretty sure I'm never going to see or speak to him again, and it sucks.

I want more than anything to get a second chance, well a third...I totally blew my second chance.

It sucks because he was different and I liked that.

I just have issues with commitment and people showing interest in me.

It’s really hard for me to believe people genuinely care about me and honestly want to know me.

Especially dudes.

Plus the fact every guy in my life has let me down...

I just need someone who is willing to deal with my dumbass bullshit, and I don't think that person exists.

I mean it's not even lame ass drama like most bitches have, its deep seeded issues that made me super fucked up and I think for guy that's harder to be with.

Especially when the bitch is more stubborn than a mother fucker :)

What dude wants an emotionally scarred asshole when they can have a dumb bitch that's easy.

Yadida.

Whiny Littile Low Life

I really need to get out of this shitty hell hole.

I also need to not be confused by dumb assholes.

I have too much going on.

I need another job.

I need a new place to live.

I need a car.

I can't stand being here.

I hate where I'm at.

I really am lovesick.

Ok that's enough of me whining :)



Boredem Entry: Things That Descibe Me Pt. 10

It's really sad how much of  a sucker I am for dimples.

I just can't help myself ^__^



Lovely

So today was Chris's surgery.

We, of course, had another all night movie party.

This time it was more fun, because we weren't at my parents lame ass house.

His surgery was about 10 hours, and we were at the hospital for 12...

We got to see him afterward, but he was still under.

I reeeeeeeally hate seeing people in the hospital.

Especially in ICU.

It comes with very bad memories.

He was sleeping and had all the breathing tubes in still.

It was crazy to see him like that.

So for now he is doing well.

We are going to see him tomorrow, so we'll see how it is then.