Shit Shit Shit

I thought I was falling for this dude, but I'm not so sure.

I have very mixed emotions right now.

I thought I liked him, but lately I don't care about him.

Like when he's around me I don't get butterflies and my heart doesn't race.

I don't care if I'm near him or not either.

At the same time, I like to talk to him and I sometimes get that little tinge of jealousy when another girl is flirting with him.

But I'm not a jealous person, so I can shrug that shit off.

I don't know what to do with him.

Like do I go for it or do I just move on?

I mean its been like this the whole time, but now I just don't care really wtf he thinks, or maybe I do?

Urg!

I'm just confused.

Normally I can just be a playa and shrug shit like this off, but we talk every day and almost every night.

I like our long ass conversations about nothing, or us play fighting over text.

I like it, but I don't know if I like him...

Shit.

Shit.

Things I'd Dress My Kids As For Halloween



Truth is

I know I come off as a slut or whatever, but that's actually fatherest from the truth...

I have an extremely dirty mind and I always make dirty jokes and talk about sex with certain people, but that doesn't make me a whore.

I don't fuck any and everybody.

I don't go find random dudes to fuck.

I don't hook up.

And I'm definitely not desperate for dick.
I actually only show my goods to my boyfriend ;)

I just like to joke around.

I say this all the fuckin time, but I was raised by dudes, and dudes are aways talkin bout sex.

I don't apologize for how I am, and I can honestly care less if you do think I'm a slut, whore, or whatever else you wanna call me.

I hang wit dudes and we talk about sex, girls, and engines.

Sometimes that spills over to when I kick it with other people.

I'm sorry if you can't handle that, but I'm not sorry for my wide range in sexual humor.
Ok, ok I'm a big ol' slut...but only with my dude lol

Weird Happy, Not Weird Crappy

Tonight was so fucking good.

I honestly feel amazing right now.

I'm makin hella dope ass new friends and possibly a new boo.

Things are going very, very well.

I don't even know how to describe this feeling.

I got to see my bff tonight on the way home, like hella just ran into her.

She was with her friend that I've met before, so I kicked it with them.

Her friend is hella dope n we gonna kick it tomorrow.

Then, this dude came and met up with me just to keep me company.

I think I caught fuckin feelings for him n vise-versa.

I don't think either of us are going to say anything yet though, which is good with me for right now.

We're just enjoying each other an gettin to know each other.

I never thought in a million years I would ever see him like this, but fuck, I guess shit just happens sometimes.

I just wanna take it slow cause I don't want it to be a rebound from that nigga from a few months ago.

I don't think it is tho.

I think its legit feelings :)
With him its different.

Like I don't worry about what to say cause he understands my humor, and I don't care if I sound like an idiot with him.

I'm hella comfortable with him.

Shit.

The playa got played ahahahaha!

Kidding.

But foreals....I like him :)

On top of that, I met a couple new people that are hella fuckin koo!

We just hella fit, I guess that's the word? Haha.

Like we just get each other for the start.

It's fuckin dope, n I'm fuckin happy!

I am beyond grateful for this moment in my life :)

Song of the Day

Dear bitchass mother fucker,

Shut your mouth 'cause you talk too much
And I don't give a damn anyway
You always seem to be steppin' in shit
And all you really do is complain
Here's your lie, tell it all you like
Small minds tend to think a like
Shut your mouth 'cause you're talkin' too much
And I don't give a fuck anyway

Song of the Day

This has been on repeat on my phone for a couple weeks :)

I love them



Got Me Fucked Up

So tell me why some mother fucker stole my driver's license.

I am almost positive I know who stole it.

Like what the fuck?

I don't understand why this person would steal my fucking ID when they know they can just ask for it.

I'm not trippin off giving someone my old one.

I'm so dumbfounded.

Fuck you, you mother fucking dumbass bitch.

I am NEVER gonna be cool with them ever again.

And this isn't to the person I suspect, but to anyone.

Cause I'm not 100% sure and it really could be anyone.

Fuck whoever they are.

Karma's gonna get them tho.

They shoulda looked into identity theft and how someone can catch them before they decided to steal my ID.

You bes believe I will press charges if they get caught.

Fuck that I don't give a fuck if it's your first offense!

You're going to jail.

Identity theft is a felony.

Good luck with your life after that...

Truth Is

I kinda fell for this dude.

I'm not too sure if my feelings are only rebound feelings tho.

I mean it sucks not knowing.

I kinda feel like they are and I don't want to hurt this dude's feeling, but we're getting really close.

Like really close...

Blah I just don't know.

I still have feeling for this other dude that I'm not over yet...

I'm just tryna be cool an not trip over it, but I can't help it.

Urg stupid brain has to be man crazy!!

Well anyway this song is for both of them ;)

Follow this linky-poo for da song foo!

My Bipolar Life

Aside from the fact that I actually might be bipolar, my life has a lot of steep ups and downs.

I like how there's always a super low down that seems like it'll never end, but then the up starts and sky rockets.

Ok, this may be my craziness coming out...

But hey it's the truth.

I always get shit thrown at me until there a mound of it laying there.

Then the flowers start to bloom and you can't really see the shit anymore.

You like the analogies?

It's cause I'm the shit.

~anyway~

The point of this story is that my life is going up right now, and it's different this time.

I'm excited where it's going to take me.

This time I won't let anything or ANYONE bring me down!

Yummy :)





Ain't That The Damn Truth

Magnet

So...

I don't why special ed dudes gotta fall in love with me, but they do.

*sigh* Why do I have to be so God damn nice.

Haha, but nah I'm not really trippin off it.

They aren't doing any harm, for now.

But there is this one guy that people keep sying likes me.

I have no idea what to think.

I mean he acts like he does I guess, but at the same time he could just be being nice.

Idk, Ima just see where it goes.

Maybe have a lil fun while I'm at it, haha...

Song of the Day

I've had this song on repeat for the past couple weeks.

It just speaks to me...

"Hey, we got a good thing
Don’t know if I’ma see you again
But is that a good thing?
Cause girl I can’t be your man, no ma’am
I know whats on your brain
You're probably hoping it never would end
Like is it the real thing or is it just a one night stand"

"Well, Straight up I tell ya I just really wanna cut when were together"

Quote of the Day

Poetic Suicide

It's hard to make yourself not like someone.

You don't understand why, but you want to control yourself so no one gets hurt.

It's even harder when this person always tries to talk to you and hits you up.

It seems that they know the exact moment you're thinking about them, and they text you.

People keep saying they like you.

They say things no one has ever said.

They do things no one has ever done.

You know it won't work.

You know it won't last.

Your heart can't help but stop when you see them, even though you want it to ignore the excruciating enamorment.

It still creeps up on you like the fog rolls in over the bay.

You can't help what you feel.