Ay Caramba

Where do I even start...

Ever since Chris died my life has gone on a crazy roller coster ride of craziness.

No fucking joke.

Like good and bad.

My life really did change forever when I lost him.

I am trying to take care of myself more like he wanted.

I'm trying to get my shit together and be successful to make him proud.

Honestly the only reason why I have forced myself to do anything this past month was because I know he'd be mad I didn't.

It's been hard but I kept myself going.

Well, I had some help from someone <3

For the most part I have been alone though, and that's what's the hardest.

I was so used to Chris being with me all the time and I loved it.

He was the only person who truly understood me completely.

He understood excatly why I was anxious, mad, sad, upset, happy, crazy, etc.

He was there for me no matter what.

He supported me in what I wanted to do nd even though he made fun of it, he believed in me.

He was the only one in my life that cared about me uncondtionally.

I lost the only person who I felt really was there, and it really fucking sucks.

I could've lost anyone else and probably would have made it easier, but I lost the most important person in my life.

The one that kept me going, and that was my rock.

Now I'm just a big fat blob wobbling around life. Haha.

I got this though!!

I am going to make it and I am going to be fine.

I have mostly good days, but then there's the days I think about what Chris is going to miss.

I think about all the things we had planned, and everything we talked about doing.

I just can't believe he isn't going to be here anymore.

Blah.

I didn't mean to go on a stupid rant :/

Ok enough of this sad shit!

UNICORNS SHITTING RAINBOWS!!!!!!!!!!!!