This has been on my mind for a little while.

I reeeeeeeally hate talking about family shit, but here it goes...

People have called me ghetto and a hoodrat in the past, and I generally just laugh it off or make a joke.

I mean I am technically from the hood and my family is full of OG's, but I'm not tryna be down to ride anymore.

I mean, I never really was down to ride in the first place.

I've seen where that hood shit can get a person, and I don't want to go down that road.

I made my mind up when I was young.

I could've very easily went down that road and been a banga.

I also could've been slangin.

That shit isn't for me.

I want to have opportunities that that shit won't ever give me.

I have fought for everything I have, and have to keep fighting for what I want.

As a child I have gone hungry.

I have almost been homeless a couple times.

Growing up our house was almost taken away more than twice.

I never really got anything new, unless it was a special occasion.

I have to work hella hard to pay my way.

But I am fucking proud to have come from an impoverished background.

Its just sometimes I feel like I am too ghetto for people.

I mean dudes I've been with or talked to that have been "white-bred" or that have had "good" childhoods don't really get where I'm coming from.

And its even with friends.

I have many people in my life who don't know anything about what its like to go without water, food, or have to scrounge for clothes.

And I'm not sayin I'm better/worse or anything like that, but I just feel like sometimes its hard to connect with people who don't know.

I feel like when I do speak "like a hoodrat" or do "ghetto" things they look at me crazy or something.

I mean maybe its a sence of not feeling good enough?

Meh, I don't know.

I don't think I'm explaining it how I want to.

I just needed to vent about it either way, so yeah...

That's shit.





Nerd

I need to get my ass in to gear, and focus on this college shit.

I have like 4/5 weeks to bring up my bio grade.

Plus I have to hurry and finish my portfolio, as well as do shit for all my other classes.

Blah I hate studying...

Why can't I just absorb knowledge from sleeping on my books :(

Song of the day

I fucking love this song.

It's one of my all time favorites.
Its hard to explain, but its such a raw sound.
And the lyrics are amazing.
There's just so much power in this song.



Sup, yo!

I like where things are right now.

I mean there's some iffy stuff going on, but a good iffy...maybe

Its just that time when things are in the right place, and possible new ventures are knocking at your door.

Haha, could I be any more cheesy :D

I guess I'm just in a cheesy mood.

Meh...

I just really love the people in my life right now.

I am so happy to have seemingly finally found people to be my (surrogate) family.

Don't need to mention how I don't really have a supportive family...

Well I guess I just did so yeah...

Plus this one dude is pretty cool and yeah...

TeeHee ^__^

I feel like my vagina wants to gobble up dick like Kobayashi!

I hella am dude crazy right now.

I got boos all over the place.

I got three at work, three in my class, and random ones where ever I go.

I needa get this shit on lock hahaha!!!

Its getting ridiculous!

I have a main boo in mind though.

I'll let you know how that goes...

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Sooooo.....this happened......

I kinda got a tattoo on Saturday...

It was pretty fun :D

I've been wanting it since I was 12, so I finally did it.

So there's only six more weeks left of this semester.

I am kinda happy about it.

I am currently in 7 classes and working, so I'm literally at the college all day every day.

The next 3 semesters, summer included, are going to be lighter.

But I have to get another job again to make sure I can make ends meet.

I'm not even going to talk money right now.

That's enough for another post...

~anyways~

I should be asleep right now, but I never can sleep before 2 :)

I hate waking up at 7am to get to school before 8 to get a spot in the back of the class.

Haha I am such an amazing student, and good influence for the people I tutor :D

From now on I will only take classes that start at 10am or later, but I will make exceptions if the class is really interesting...then it will be 9:30am.

Blah and then when I move to Hayward its going to be even worse cause my fat body has to walk all over the fucking college on a hill.

I still need to go visit the place I will be signing my life away for...and by that I mean having to get loans to pay for it.

Mother fuckers...

Ok, so I'm starting to ramble and shit...

Night.

Its sad when you hear an old friend is on a seemingly downward spiral.

From my experience, from what I hear is happening, they are either on drugs, or something bad happened to them.

Either I way I wish they didn't pull away from me like they did.

I want to help, but how do you help someone who wants nothing to do with you.

Plus they completely disappeared.

Tests that deserved A's



Green Card!!

So today Melissa and I got lost in the Berkeley/Oakland hills.

That was fun.

They have the most amzingest houses I've ever seen.

Me and her were like who do we have to fuck to live there?!

Haha...

After that we met up with Jess and Corri.

We sat in Starbucks for like 3 hours catching up and talking about random shit :)

I fucking love my people!

So tell me why this group of Mexicans, 5 deep kept staring at us.

We left when the place closed and they were waiting for us outside. When we were leaving they were standing there, and we were waiting for them to leave so we can get into our cars.

They pile into one truck and sit there staring at us.

We were standing there for like 10 minutes until I decided to wave jokingly.

They then sat there for 10 more minutes until they finally left and honked as they did.

When they got to the main road they passed us and honked again.

It was pretty awkward haha.

You had to be there to understand the whole thing.

So yeah that was that.

I still have to do health homework :( and clean the kitchen, so my mom can be happy.

I went lightweight house hunting today though, so I was cool wit that.

We found a really nice house that we liked.

I just need to get some money together and I hope its still available when I get it.

We still have some places in Hayward we need to look at.

I don't know, I just need to be far away from this dungeon and in my castle :)

Any princes willing to take me ;)

You just got bitch slapped!!
BUAHAHAAHAAHAHAAHA!!!!



Whaaaaat?!!!!



Spring BREEEEEEAAAAAKKKKK!!!!

I'm half way done with spring break.

I have done so much with my life.

Not...

At least I'm almost caught up with my work.

I haven't cleaned shit like I wanted to, but I guess I have a few more days to do that.

I think by this time tomorrow I will have all my PoliSci work done, and I will finally be done with everything I have to turn in to her.

With the exception of the final and the research paper.

I only have 2 more write ups and then a rough draft for my research paper, which only needs to be 3-5 pages.

I can bullshit that real fast ;)

After that I'm good though.

Then clean until I can't clean any more.

It just sucks I also have to clean the kitchen, spotless(to my mom's standards), on top of doing my room.

My room is a disaster zone, with shit piled up from the last year and a half.

I have only been in my room to sleep and get clothes for that past year or so, so there's shit everywhere from people leaving it in here and me just throwing down "real fast" with the hopes of picking it up later.

Yeah, that never seemed to happen...

:D

I'm determined to clean it and have it nice and semi-organized for the rest of the semester, and summer.

I just need more room for all my shit haha.

I have a house full of stuff shoved into a little baby bedroom.

Hmmmmm....guess I should be looking for a bigger space...

Oh, wait I am :)

Ok I have rambled way too much.

Need to go to sleep so I get do work tomorrow.



Well Hello There...

Imagine the title in a creepy voice...

Hennyways!

I have been kinda busy lately...like always...

I'm so happy its spring break!

I'm taking a stay-cation...cause I never go anywhere...

I'm super cool like that.

I need to stay home anyway.

This is the longest I've been in my house in about a year.

As much as I hate this house I need to catch up on my sleep, and I don't have another bed to sleep in anymore (winky face).

I also have to catch up in one of my classes cause I didn't have a computer to use for hella long, so now I have to write some papers.

Thank God my professor doesn't really care when you turn your work in, as long as you turn it in.

So that's my amazing life...haha...

PS I took this picture of a dog. Tell me it doesn't look like he's a creeper, creepily sayi, "Well heeeelloo therrre..."