Fresh start...kinda

I am writing this early because I am going to be at a New Year's party.

I want to say happy new year to everyone, and I hope everyone has fun tonight.

I also hope everyone is safe.

I'm thinking this year is going to be crazier and more hectic and fun than last year.

Let's do this!!

LAZAY!

Well, ok...I'm not being lazy...I'm just busy...

This is the first time I have been on the computer in a while.

I guess this is what's its like to have a life, haha.

I don't really know what to talk about anymore.

I had a pretty good Christmas.

It started off dysfunctional, no surprise, but it ended up being good.

This weekend I have a party to go to for New Year's.

Going shopping tomorrow, possibly.

I have to also make about 6 dozen cookies for the party.

Being forced to, too.

Anyway I'm good right now.

Chillin out and kickin back.

I can't really complain about anything.

Well there's always my dumbass family but that's a broken record.

Just call me a hopeless romantic :)

It doesn't matter what your stance is on Prop 8.

Just to see people in honest, loving, and healthy relationships is cute.

But then again, I'm a closet romantic ;)
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HA!!!

I'm so happy Blogspot FINALLY fixed the toolbox thingy.

It's only been like 4 months.

I don't even really know how long it's been haha.

 All I know is it is going to make my life a little bit easier.

YEE! YEE!

Drunk ol' whore.

So I haven't partied in a really long time.

Like foreal partied, not that little kid bullshit.

Anyway though.

When I drink...along with other stuff...cough cough...I get really loud and crazy.

People think it's just me "coming out of my shell," but it really isn't.

I act that way with people I'm cool with, sober...

I think it's more like Raj from Big Bang Theory.

I just have social anxiety, and not being completely sober helps me out :D

But unlike Raj, I only get like that when its large groups of people at once that I don't know.

And I can handle myself sober.

Well, well, well....

I'm back.

At least trying to be...

My life is ridiculously busy.

I really like it that way too.

I really did want to do a post a day, but I guess life got in the way.

It's hard to catch you up on everything that has been going down the past week.

I mean I haven't really been detailed in what has been going down anyway...

Just a lot of shit.

Met a couple dudes, some old ones came back up...

Was perkin at a party, and just let loose.

Had a lot of fun.

Spent my whole pay check on Christmas presents for people who are extremely indifferent about everything...

Made a bunch of friends, but then again I always do :)

I don't know, there's just alot of stuff happening...more than I can put in here.

But I'm having an amazing time!

I hope everyone else is too!

YEE! YEE!

Eh...that was short...

Sooooo...

Tomorrow is my official last day for this semester.

It has gone by fast...too fast.

I'm glad in a way because this semester wasn't the greatest, school wise.

I didn't really like my classes all that much, because they were easy and kinda boring...generally speaking...

I can't wait for my classes next semester.

I'm looking forward to all but biology and polisci.

Tomorrow I have a final in Socio and then Ima bounce!

I'm ending my semester with trip to Oakland, and a dinner with all my (school) friends.

We're going to celebrate the fact we're free (for the next month at least).

YEE! YEEEEEE!

College kid

It's finally finals week.

I'm too exhausted after this semester.

So many things have changed, good and bad.

It was pretty ridiculous, crazy, and fun.

Next semester is going to be even more hectic!

There so much to say, and I have little space :)

After tomorrow I'm pretty much done for the semester.

Then a big ass party on Saturday.

I'm totally ready.

Going to get fucked up.

It's been a long awaited binge ;)

Word to the wise

Don't try and run up on me or punk me, cause I can be very, very vindictive and relentless.

I hate to get that way, but you know some of my past.

You know I have a lot of pent up rage.

Don't bring me to the point where I take it out on you.

You have no idea what I am capable of if I let myself get that low.

Just don't fuck with me...

Song of the Day

It's been stuck in my head for the last couple days.
Every time I hear it, it makes me want to dance...and I do!



Remembrance.

I really miss her.

Ang aking lola.

Mi abuela.

My grandmother.

She deserved so much better than what she got.

She is why I fight to stay away from grimy men.
Happy birthday.

I miss

Bob Ross



and his happy trees.

Blah

I've been so busy it's ridiculous!

With work, volunteering, school, and everything else I haven't had time for my blog
:(

I miss it.

I knew this happy coasting wasn't going to last too long.

People always know right when to fuck shit up.

It's alright I'm going to stand my ground like I always do, and fight with their dumbass until I can get out of this hell hole.

I'm not letting them bring me down because they have nothing to show for their life...

Oh, how I love

watching dog chase cat.

It's pretty hilarious...

Especially when they lame as fuck.



And by dog I mean a dude, and cat a girl....for you who can't put that together...

Brudah

Just got home.

It was an early night tonight, but still fun :)

Found a new church in the city.

Melissa and I are going to see whatsup with it.

Tell me why I was hella popular today.

I was having conversations with 6 people tonight.

Granted they were over text, but still haha.

Plus I went out for a little.

I was talking to one person about the past few months.

They have gone by so fast, it's ridiculous.

I have done so much, and so much has changed.

It's crazy what has happened in only 3 months.

Things to do this week:

1. Finish my jar and second mask for ceramics
2. Finish my 10 page research paper(due Thursday)
3. Do Hidden Messages paper(due Tuesday)
4. Do that Carl Marx paper(due Tuesday)
5. Turn in my Socio paper on Tuesday
6. Meet up with Art :)
7. Help Melissa move
8. Don't be stressed

I've been putting most of these off for too long, and now I have to hurry up and do them.

Procrastination is my middle name.

I'm good at it.

I'm also good at pulling amazing shit out of my ass, so it works out.

Heh heh...

Finally!!

Today was pretty good.

I finally got a new phone.

I have been needing one for sooooo long.

I've had mine for 3 years.

It was ridiculously slow, and forced closed all the time.

But anyway I'm very happy with my phone.

It's purple and black :D

It's pretty effing cool....like me...MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

So yeah.

That's news for this weekend...

It was a good holiday :)

Obsessed or Enamored...is either one even good

Have you ever met someone you were willing to change for?

I mean not change the core person you are, because I don't believe in that.

I mean change the "bad" things you're doing in life.

Like the stupid shit that can potentially fuck your life up.

I know that sounds really dumb, but I mean partying and all that.

I was just wondering about this...

It doesn't matter why either, so don't ask Corri!

Haha, I kid.

All fancy n shit

Had a surprisingly amazing Thanksgiving.

I wasn't sure how today was going to go.

It ended up being really fun.

Last night I picked up Desiree, and went over to Denise's house where we got ready for today.

After we were done preparing everything, Melissa, George, Desi, and I had a little pre-party.

A night filled with beer and....other things....plus dancing all night.

Des and I shared a bed all snuggled up, haha.

Then this morning we all help cook and clean.

There was about 22 people at dinner tonight.

Me dad and brother also were there, which was pretty weird.

It was joining to very different parts of my life together.

~anyway~

I really liked the feeling tonight though.

Everyone was chill, and we just kicked it all day/night basically.

We had a sit-down dinner.

I like how communal it felt.

Everyone welcomed everyone, and we all talked to each other.

Of course we ended up dancing...like always.

We were classy tonight, and had wine.

It was the nicest Thanksgiving I have had in a very long time.

I haven't been to something like this since my grandma passed like 10 years ago

It was good.

I'm exhausted from lastnight and today, so if there are errors in this post, my bad.

I hope everyone had a really good day.

Fuck dude...

Man, so today I saw this girl I used to know in junior high.

She was acting kinda weird as she walked by.

I was told that she had a mental break down in high school.

By mental break they meant she went completely bat shit crazy...

Like one day she snapped and had to be taken to a mental ward.

What the fuck right.

Apparently she was hearing voices and had crazy thoughts.

I was told she told one of our friends this man was telling her he was going to rape 10 girls and kill everyone, or something like that.

I want to know what happened to her that made her crazy, or if it was just something "natural."

It's just hella crazy to me that that happened to someone I knew.

She doesn't even look the same at all as she did when we were young.

That's some crazy ass shit.

This is a hard job...

This job gets really tough sometimes...(sarcasm)

Except right now, well I guess especially right now.

It's pretty slow right now...

I don't really have anything to do.

I'm pretty good at keeping myself busy, but right now I have ran out of ideas for the moment.

I like this job...for the most part...

I love helping people.

I really love watching someone who is struggling with a problem finally understand it.

~anyway~

It does get hard sometimes though.

Reading essay after essay, which can be up to 10 pages long, can get tiring.

Many people say that it is the easiest job, but it really isn't...

I mean it's not physically hard at all, but fuck man....mentally it can be draining.

Especially when a student COMES to you and then they fight over whether they are wrong or not.

But whatever.

They don't bring me down :)

I love being a nerd sometimes..

Weekends

This weekend was pretty chill.

I'm not sure if I like it.

I mean it's good to relax and all, but I get super bored.

I need something to do, or at least be with people who are not boring haha.

I guess it wasn't too bad though.

Got some shit done.

I totally slept like 14 hours last night too!

I have NEVER slept that long before.

Well while not being sick anyway...

That's hella crazy to me.

I haven't told anyone yet either.

So shhhhhhh... this is our little secret!

I know I needed all that sleep though, so it's ok.

Like I said

I did get to be pretty lazy today :)

I mean I had to clean and cook, but for the most part it was chill.

And as I said earlier, something came up.

I ended up going to the movies and a super late dinner with my peoples.

We saw Harold and Kumar Save Christmas, or whatever it's called.

It was pretty funny, but I feel like it would be so much better if we were high.

Lope agreed.

Overall today and tonight were pretty good.

Except I'm going through a Left 4 Dead withdraw cause I started playing it again.

Man, that game's awesome :)

Off

So today is the first day in a few months that I haven't had to wake up for anything.
I'm not going to say I get to chill out all day, because every time I say that someone calls me to do something, or something comes up.
I want to have a day to myself where I don't have to put pants on ;)
Granted, I don't put pants on for some people sometimes, but you know what I mean.
The only problem is I hate being in this house for a long time, and I get extremely bored.
I'm probably going to end up going somewhere.
But at least it's not forced :)

For someone

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
I'm the voice inside your head you refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face, mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees

Haters gonna hate

I can't believe some people are willing to stoop to the lowest levels to try and hurt someone...

I hope that person feels good about themselves.

They didn't hurt anyone's feeling.

Only made themselves look hella dumb...

Oops.

Baby mama drama...

So today was filled with kids...

I had a discussion with some friends about how we can't understand why someone would date a person with a kid if they don't want anything to do with children.

I mean the person with the kid is kind of a packaged deal.

It's really retarded if someone would think that a parent will put fucking before their child.

Granted some will, but they normally aren't really in their kid's life to begin with.

I'm talking about those who are all about their kid, and are fully in their kid's life.

I mean I'm sorry to break this to them, but you're just a bitch who'll spread...their baby is their world...you can't ever change that.

~anyway~

I saw an old friend at my sister's job tonight, while I was shopping.

She was watching her friends baby.

We kinda hung out while shopping around.

The little baby was pretty damn cute.

She was two and was fascinated by everything in the store...until my friend put on a mask to freak the baby out.

The baby was holding my hand walking around the store.

My sister was making fun of how cute we looked together.

I'm sorry I look all maternal and shit, and that's cute to some people...

*Sigh*

Another weekend has come and past.

I guess this one was more exciting than last week's.

Went to a kick back where I was one of three girls.

What an effing sausage fest!

I like those types of things though.

I get to just chill with no dumbass bullshit or drama from whiny ass females.

~anyway~

I should be trying to sleep right now, but I just got home not too long ago and I'm in this weird mood.

I have been thinking a lot lately about life.

Well ok, not really, but just about a few things.

Have you ever realized that your life is/has changed a lot, and you feel weird because you were so used to how it was before, but at the same time you like how it is now?

I feel like that now.

I mean I like it, but it just feels weird...in a good way.

I hate to get all mushy and shit like that, but it does.

I guess I just realized that I got myself out of that hole I was in, and now I can see the purty birds and shits in the horizon...you know you like my metaphor!

For Corri

Do you like clowns now?!

Let the venting commence...

I'm just hella mad right now.

So it was brought to my attention that people in my class have a problem with me being a smartass.

First of all, I haven't talked about what happened last week.

Basically my teacher in my CRITICAL THINKING class told me someone went up to her and said that because I talk so much they feel like they can't get their opinions across and I intimidate them and they feel like they can't talk.

She then asked that I don't talk as much, and try not to be so bright.

(The last part was a joke.)

I never talk over anyone or push my shit on anyone.

Most of the time I'm just making a joke or something...

So anyway.

My people in the class know what happened, so now we are hella smartasses about it.

The joke is whenever someone is talking and one of us is saying something or we say something after them the others yell at the person to "shut up because we are not letting the other person say their opinion."

I can give a fuck if my teacher gets mad, or anyone else for that matter.

If you have a problem with me or anyone in my "group", as my teacher calls us, then fucking man up and talk to us.

Don't be a little bitch about it, and pussy out and just sit there talking shit under your breath to your friends...

Apparently today when I said I was going to let everyone else talk first so I don't ruin their opinion with mine, someone started talking shit, and one of my friends saw.

I feel like that's hella high school.

If people want to talk in the class, fucking talk.

Grow balls and speak up.

Even tell me, or whomever, to shut up if you want.

Granted that may start problems, but you know what I mean...

I mean we're supposedly all adults.

It's OK to speak your mind.

I'm not going to bite your head off or anything if you disagree with anything I say.

Most of the time I'm just shit talking and joking...

All I can say is

Woman of the night

Just getting home.

I need to stop being out hella late.

At least during the week when I have to wake up hella early, and can't get a nap.

These past months have been really amazing though.

I am really excited for what's going to happen next.

Nothing can really bring me down.

Even though I have minor bumps...

It's all good though.

I am in a good fucking place.

All the people who weren't shit seem to have been weeded out of my life(for now), and some cool ass people took their place.

People who actually give a fuck too.

None of that whatever happens-happens, and I can get over you hella fast bullshit.

These people I'm with are protective and caring.

I like it.

I never had this many people try to be there for me...genuinely that is...

Song of the Day

Has nothing to do with Molly, but it reminds me of it.

Good ol' Molly ;)

This song slaps!

It's really sad...

when your old friend has to be so childish, and make fun of you.

I mean come on...we're not in fucking junior high...

I thought we were adults.

It's whatever though.

Obviously they weren't shit to me if they can just turn around and be that catty...

Fuck dem bitches ;)

California Dreamin'

I've been having weird dreams lately...

Awesome

This weekend was pretty relaxing.

I got to just chill out for a couple days.

I haven't done that in about two or three months.

It felt pretty good.

I kinda missed going out every night, but whatever I can do that again easily.

I haven't seen my family in hella long, so I felt like I had to stay home and kick it with them.

This weekend was surprisingly almost all the way drama free.

Now hopefully I get to class on time tomorrow, and hurry up and finish my project that was due last Wednesday.

Plus I have a couple more projects for ceramics due soon.

Oh, and then I have to bust ass to finish my portfolio for photography.

Plus the debate I have in English on Tuesday.

Then the paper for Sociology about a movie I didn't watch yet.

So much for a chiller life...

I love being busy though.

It keeps my mind off all the bullshit :)

I'm not dead

So, just so everyone is clear, I'm not dead...

I've just been living...and loving...and doing it to the utmost...

Ha, I love that movie.

But anyway...
I'm good.
Everything is good.
And I hope you all are good :)

Oh...SHIT...

Fucking delicious.



I'm pretty sure tomorrow is going to be the last time I ever see most of these people ever again.

Well, ok, actually Sunday and Wednesday were the last day.

Tomorrow I'm going to be cleaning the store with Desi and Denise so it can look pertiful for inventory.

I think Scott and Curtis are going to be there too, but I'm not sure if anyone else will be.

It's been a pretty fucking crazy ride.

That's putting it very lightly.

From almost losing everything to going on a date with a girl(on accident)...it's been fucking amazing :)

I'm going to miss everyone, but I hope I get to kick it with some of them in the near future.

My life is going pretty fucking awesomely right now, and I haven't ever felt like this before.

I really like where I'm at and where I'm headed.

I make em scream ;)

Tonight was pretty fun...like always...

Went to see Paranormal Activity 3 with Corri, Lissa, and Chris.

Corri screamed like a bitch the whole time.

It was fucking hilarious.

Everyone in the theater was laughing at her when she screamed.

I have known her basically all our lives, and I've never heard her scream like that.

By the way, the ending isn't life changing like everyone says it is...

Had a pretty good time though.

Now I have to wake up in like 5 hours, and have class all day, then work, then a night class.

Awesome...

My car smells like...

...thanks Melissa...

Shiiiiiiiiit

This weekend was pretty ridiculous.

There are no words for how crazy it got.

 I haven't had a weekend quite like that in a really long time.

All I can say was last night's dinner was the best tasting dinner EVER.

Oh, and fucking Tyson ruined my phone...and pants...

Mother fucker...

I don't think anyone(besides Corri) will ever understand how hard it is to tutor people when you're a little "under the weather"

Fuck man...

It was fun though.

Especially yesterday at work.....

Bruuuuuuuh

Man, these past couple months have been crazy.

It feels kinda weird that we are about to close.

It hasn't hit me yet that I won't be working with these awesome losers anymore ;)

I'm going to miss most of them.

Apparently we are going to be BFFs legitly, but we'll see how that goes...

I hope that Tyson, Desiree, and Andrew stay in touch, because they are pretty fucking awesome.

This is hella lame and cheesy, but they've been there for me more than other people have.

Even when I get annoying as fuck.

Well at least I think I'm being annoying.

This is the last weekend working together, and then I see them Wednesday.

I mean I'm going to help with the break down of the store, so I'll see a few of them during that.

I just have mixed emotions about this shit.

On one hand I won't be as stressed out as mush as I have been, but on the other hand this job was sort of an escape(most of the time...)

I guess we'll just have to see what's next for this lady :)

Tonight

I kinda hate being at school all day long.

I mean sometimes it's alright, but not when I'm exhausted...

Work was boring today.

Then after work, Corri and I went to PetSmart while waiting for Melissa.

I was so close to buying a snake, then a lizard, and then a hamster.

Fuck they were all hella cute!

Oh and then there was a turtle trying to walk through the glass to get me...

I wanted him too.

~anyway~

We got Melissa and then went to dinner in good ol' San Pablo, my hometown :)

Then I cut and dyed Corri's hair.

It's pretty fucking amazing, but then again I might be a little bias...

Workedy work

So I am at work, and it's kinda slow.

I was skimming my blog a little, and I noticed I talk a lot.

I feel like I'm boring you guys with my bullshit.

I honestly don't talk about most of this in real life, so I guess this is my way of venting or something.

I really liked the older posts when I was hella bored putting up random pictures, music, and comments on life.

I have been so busy though, I don't really have time to do that.

I am trying to keep my word and put at least a post up every day, but that's even hard to do sometimes.

Urg, there's just so much shit happening right now.

Hopefully when Halloween is over I'll have more time to make the blog better.

Soon my babies soon...

Midnight Excursions

Man, I love going to an all night diner and just fuckin around.

I mean we order and everything so we're not just sitting there, but normally we spend a couple hours just talking and joking.

I think that's the best kind of relationship to have.

One where you can go to some random ass spot and just talk and have fun.

Thank God for these people I have to cheer me up.

We were in IHOP for like 2 and a half hours just now being dumb.

I'm content now.

Oh, and by "we" I mean my sister and whoever we bring with us, normally Corri...

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...

Why is it when I look like garbage dudes be tryna jock my shit.

Haha, no but foreal, whenever I look/feel like garbage that's when dudes get at me, and when I look cute I don't get any play.

What the fuck...

(above is a joke for you people who can't tell)

So right now there are a few dudes trying to get at me.

The thing is I really like this one dude, but I don't know how he feels.

It's a weird relationship we have.

I can't really explain it, but I fucking care about him just as a person, like a friend not even some fucking love interest.

That's saying a lot too.

For me, it's really hard to let people into my life and feel shit for them.

So letting this person into my life feels kinda weird, especially cause I kinda like him :)

Urg I don't know...

Oh, and one of the dudes, tryna get at me, asked me out tonight.

I'm so fucking torn with this shit.

I have never been in this position.

I mean I want to be cool with the one that asked me out, and I don't even know him like that to say whether or not I'd date him.

I mean he's nice and pretty cute, but that's not what I'm looking for, entirely...I need substance :D

There is so much detail to this whole situation I can't even being to put in a post.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!

WHY AM I SO LOVABLE?!

(kidding)

Bad shit/Good shit

So my nice, relaxing day of catching up on my shit was ruined...

Denise calls me and was like,  "I need you to come to work right now...Get Corri and get here as soon as possible..."

Hella serious.

I guess she forgot to put Corri and I on the schedule, and she needed us hella bad.

I had to hop in the shower and get ready hella fast, then swoop by and get Corri, go to BART and rush to get there.

When we got there, there was hella people working.

I was like the fuck did we needa come in for...

It was a good night though.

I had fun with Tyson, Corri, and Andrew on the way home...but I always do...

Theyz my partnas foreal though.

Now I have to wake up in 4 hours to open the damn store.

How amazing right...

All in all it was a good night with some good ass people.

Getting off

So today was the first day off I have had in like three months.

It feels good to be able to sleep in, and have time to myself.

Granted I had to clean and do laundry, but I still got to be at home and do basically nothing.

Didn't have to deal with any one's bullshit, or anyone talking shit to me about whatever they are talking about.

I got to kind of clear my head.

It was ridiculously boring though.

Oh well, I can't complain.

Best ever



Awesome







I effing love her!



Reminds me of some people...



Stupid brain

So I did manage to go to sleep after my last post; however, I totally just woke up and am wide awake :(

There is nothing to do at this damn house!

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

I am so bored!

I kinda wish I had that one person to talk to all night, or at least someone new to talk to all night :)

I guess I'm just going to have to be a lonely old hag that almost gets the guy, until my craziness messes it up...

Oh woah, how'd it get there?!

Don't ask I'm a little delirious...

I am the best friend a person can have!

So I should be trying to sleep right now.

I have to be awoken by certain people at 6 something so I can print their Anthro test for them, so they can take it early, because they have an orientation.

I am such a good person for letting my day off be ruined, so they don't get an F.

Am I right?

Plus I am cutting AND dying their hair when they get off of work.

For free...

Pfffffft! They're lucking to have me in their life!!

By the way, I'm totally being sarcastic :D

I wuv you Snugzy!

Open for interpretation...

I (heart) pinups :)

Dita Von Teese is pretty amazing to my life.


Corruption!

Melissa and I are finally going to join the gym.

I've been wanting to for hella long now, and she finally wants to.

We finna get our shit in shape, and be even more delicious than we already are!

BiiiiiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiiiiTCH!!!!



Heavy thoughts?

It really sucks losing someone you thought was going to be in your life for a long time, if not forever.

That is the exact reason I don't get close to people.

I hate when people get hella close and then just abandon me like I wasn't shit to them.

It's good though, because I have made hella good friends these past couple months.

I am still making friends with new people as well.

Apparently I'm a hot commodity even.

There's a few dudes tryna get at me at both my jobs.

Well, my other job not so much dudes as chicks, and apparently I can't talk to the dudes anymore cause they all think I like them...

That's another subject though.

I just feel kind of shitty losing a really close friend, but I guess they had to go to make room for the three new ones I have? Who knows.

I'm liking where I'm at right now, with the exception of this weekend...and yesterday...those were all bad, and I extremely regret BOTH of them.

Well I guess that's it for now...

Keep your head high :)

(I love being corny)

Song of the Day

This song has a lot of meaning to me.

It's one of my favorites, and it never gets old.

It's just one of those songs...

Bruh...

So apparently I can't be nice anymore, or talk to anyone ever again.

I'm just going to be mad at the world, and go back in my shell.

I mean people keep mistaking my being nice as my coochie being open for business.

I mean I guess I can understand the correlation, but damn that's not the case...

I mean I'm thankful the dudes today were pretty alright looking.

Well one was, and the other was pretty cute.

He had dimples though, so you know I'm was a sucker for them :)

Dimples is coming back on Wednesday too apparently.

He really spent an hour with me just hanging out, after I helped him.

I guess we'll see wasup with it.

He wanted me to go to Merced with him.

After like 30 minutes of tutoring him, haha.

Why am I so lovable?!

These people need to stop falling in love with me ;)

What can I say...

I'm an effing hopeless romantic deep inside.

I want this one day.

I mean you can see the sickening love permeating through their faces.



Old new beginnings

So apparently I'm a stoner, and I broke my phone perkin' at BART.

Just wanted to put that out there...

PS my BFFsie Desireé is hella awesome :)

I (heart) her

Parties, drama, and BFFsies...

So this weekend was ridiculous.

It was an emotional roller coaster to say the least...

I mean I'm good, but all this high school-esque bullshit is dumb.

So  I went to Denise's Halloween party.

I went with Desireé, her friend Conner, and Corri.

We were having hella fun.

After dropping them off at BART I was informed that one of Melissa's friends told Drew that I was hella up in his shit or something.

("Up in his shit" means I hella like him by the way...)

Apparently Melissa told her friend I was tryna talk to him, so she couldn't kick it with him...

Cause that makes so much sense.

Too bad I'm not, and now it's hella awkward.

Fuck, I hella just wanted him to be a homeboy or something, nothing more...

Now I don't even know.

It's whatever though...I have to just suck it up like I always do.

So I'm not going to talk about feelings and shit anymore.

I'm in a pretty good mind set right now.

I don't need my oats broken again. (Inside joke)

My pants are wet...

I don't understand how the monitor isn't exploding because of too much deliciousness.

I don't understand how the camera didn't explode either.

FUCK!

These are the most deliciousest men EVER!!





Life.

I have good people in my life, which I needed for a long time...

I hope those few that I just became cool with stick around for awhile ;)

But anyway, today was a good day.

I bought Melissa and Mom dinner, and we got to hang out.

That NEVER happens...EVER!

Apparently not seeing me for a week made my parents semi-care about how I am.

I guess that's better than nothing right?

My mom is even contemplating coming to visit me at my job one day...

Also!

I cannot wait til Saturday!

This party is going to be off the fucking hook!

Melissa's costume is the BEST costume I have ever heard of!

Mine is going to be cute...even though I wanted scary...but it's good.

We are going to get crazy.

I don't think these people are ready for us...

So....

Just a quick post for tonight.

I have midterms all day tomorrow.

And if you dropped out at 14 like Drew...those are tests that are given mid semester to see where you're at, basically.

I (heart) you Andy :P

Speaking of dicks, I closed with Drew and Tyson.

They are hella dumb :)

Had a pretty good drive home with them, even though I didn't get my own bottle...it's good though, I shared with Tyson.

So now I smell like weed, and I'm hella tired.

Today was pretty good :)

(sadface)

So...I just spent the last hour and a half "fixing" this mother fucking paper.

I like how there are five of us hustlin' to finish our essays before class...

The life of college students I guess.

I can't wait to celebrate this shit with a dinner with these awesome peoples :D

Plus I can't wait to get shitfaced and the party Saturday.

I need that after those fucking midterms I have Thursday...
Man, this week sucks so far :(
Well, I guess til later...
Deuces!

Lol...white people :D

BLAH!! o___O

Just finished my paper...

Shit dude, that sucked.

5 and a half hours a slaving over it and I'm done.

I just have to do that dumb peer review shit and I'm officially done with it.

I know this paper isn't up to my immaculate writing standards :) but I don't give a fuck!

I hated the topic, and had to force myself to write it.

Anyway I'm off to bed.

Have class at the butt crack of dawn :(

I'm so tired and disoriented...

There are no words...

...for how much I am completely infatuated with this delicious man...

Borderline in love ;)